Another Life

I'm back~

2010-08-02T01:03:00.000+08:00

finally I'm back~
I was sooo busy since I met someone who filled my everyday life since April
I'm happy to have her, and I wish to meet her real soon
coz I really miss her and I need her a lot..
hmm...sounds wrong..? but that's the fact~~

another semester starts
but I'm still in my holiday mood
assignment due next week, test in 2 weeks, more assignments coming
parents coming this week, slack for 1 week
I'm stressed, but not taking any action to mend it
working for 3 days in a week, but money doesn't seems to be enough every month still
no off day in a week coz I'll be working for 3 days, and uni for 4 days
dead, dull, boring~

whenever you see me blogging, you'll know my feeling
-ve more than +ve for sure~
anyway, I'll try to update more
I hope I'll have the time
see ya~

后悔

2010-04-05T17:16:00.000+08:00

每当我做决定，
我都告诉自己，
我不会后悔的

但，生活了19年
想一想，很多事情我都后悔过

小时候放弃跳舞，现在后悔
小时候放弃钢琴，现在后悔
小时候放弃画画，现在后悔

上课时不听书，考试时后悔
不练习英文，说话时后悔
不努力学华语，交新朋友后悔
从不准备考试，出成绩时后悔

不了解朋友，离开时后悔
不关心家人，离开后后悔
不珍惜爱人，分手后后悔

说起爱人，坦白的，
我后悔的最多
后悔没对你坦白
后悔没付出那么多
后悔没让你知道我爱你
后悔没真正的关心过你
我很烂吧，我也懂
真感谢你离开
我会成长吧

现在，我说每一句话后
我有所怀疑，我知道，我会后悔
我买每一样东西，我也后悔
我好像越来越不像我自己
也只能说，人真的会变

我不喜欢后悔的感觉
但，每一件事都让我觉得后悔
我该怎么办？

过去的让它过去
未来..........
我能确保我不后悔吗?

请救救我...

words not from me

2010-04-05T16:22:00.000+08:00

嘿, 亲爱的
我那晚遇见你哪

我们紧握的手
我似乎感觉到你的温度然后我笑了
我真的微笑的
我们手牵手
简单的动作带给我好多的甜蜜

多久了
多久了我没再尝到这样的甜蜜
多久了
多久了我没没再这样的牵手
多久了
连我自己都不记得多久了

亲爱的知道吗
你令我好怀念以前啊
以前的单纯以前的一切

那时的我们在那里呢
怎么我就是想不起来
她们说是在海边哪
如果真的是那样的话多浪漫多美好的画面
你好像好结实哦
她们说那样才好
那样才有安全感那样靠起来才舒服
呵呵看着那字幕想像着她们的声音我笑了

哦对了
她们我的姐妹
将来有机会我一定要你们也认识认识
毕竟都是我人生里份量好重的她们
在我遇见你以前都是她们在陪伴我
开心难过成功失败晴天雨天
几乎所有的日子都有她们的陪伴
我才不至于寂寞孤单

亲爱的相信我
你们一定会相处得很好
因为她们都很可爱都很有趣
因为许多乐趣都是她们带给我的
因为许多笑声都有她们
因为她们会因为我们的相遇我们的恋爱而替我们开心
真诚地祝福我们
她们在我记忆里有着赶也赶不走的影子

亲爱的要好好地爱我
你若是欺负我
她们就是我告状的对象
接着会为我打抱不平
但不要担心
她们的打抱不平从来就不会有危险性
我投诉时她们会配合地一起数落你的不是
但在我发泄完毕后
她们会告诉我爱情需要容忍
两个人总得互相让让
你还是值得我去爱的
我还是爱你的
你看
她们就是这么体贴那么可爱

亲爱的你要记得
将来不管如何我都不会放弃她们
我们时常都说
da bond that will never break
and we do mean this
她们是我姐妹我的家人懂了吗
以后我们的孩子不要叫她们aunty 好吗
那样好生疏哦
阿姨会不会比较好呢还是你有什么意见
我们来讨论讨论

亲爱的
那晚我看见你的背影
好迷人的背影啊
但是再怎么迷人我也不愿看到了
我不要站在你身后看着你离开我
这样的感觉真的一点也不好
我不喜欢那样我要一直在你身旁
我要我们都陪伴着彼此
因为爱情的道路两个人总得一致
其中一方若是跑得太快另一个就得拼命地追
亲爱的你不要跑太快好吗
要不然我会追不上

亲爱的你瞧
她们都在猜你到底是谁
会是他吗
但他没有结实的肌肉
她们很坏我不得不承认我也一样
我们都说他有的是肥猪肉
呵呵
说了吧她们真的很可爱
我真的好想知道你是谁好想看看你的脸
帅吗白皙吗高吗干净吗
你成了我们的话题
绕着你我们谈了几乎半个小时
在我们偶尔全到的窗子里
我们无聊吗我们无所不谈哪
这就是我们
一直以来的我们都是这样

亲爱的我们再见面吧
那天晚上在梦里我都没看清楚
让我看看你是谁好吗
真实世界里你什么时候出现??
不要让我等太久好吗??

this is exactly me!
thanks yin for expressing it!
i love it!
muacks!

life back to melbourne~

2010-03-05T18:56:00.002+08:00

I'm not having a good day today

I'm not in a very good mood for these few days

I'm not satisfied

I'm feeling bad

I'm feeling down

I'm feeling empty

I never cry

coz I'm too strong?

or coz I'm too afraid to let people know I'm weak?

I have a lot to complaint

but who is going to listen?

what kind of response will I get?

nothing~ just nothing~

I'm not good

AT ALL~~

random lyrics

2010-02-20T01:24:00.002+08:00

lyrics edited

dedicated to a very special friend

i hope she know who she is

*不喜欢怀疑什麽
并不表示你没有感受

*最讨厌被误会了
但越解释越觉得难过
他们可以说人会变
但不能说是你的错

*哭过就好了
伤都会好的
这样相信所以深呼吸著割舍

*哭过就好了
痛都会走的
记忆有限所以它会淘汰坏的

还是谢谢大家让你长大了

*你要找的自信和勇气不在口袋或手上
但它一定在你身上某个地方

don't know whether it helps
but I feel that's what i wanna tell
i'll always love you and support you...

getting excited~

2009-12-14T12:33:00.002+08:00

waking early in the morning
getting very very excited
because my parents and my lovely sister is coming today!
i'll be seeing them tonight!!
how can i be not excited???

but i'm still boring now
i went out to buy something for their supper
and bought some drinks for them
and it's only 3 something i've done everything
what should i do until 1am tonight???

anyway...mum just called and said their boarding
woohooo....8 hours...just 8 hours more....
going to take a nap now i guess
i'll see you guys real soon as well
1 month more...just 1 month....

tata....

finally~

2009-12-09T17:24:00.003+08:00

I've bought it!
Finally~
FINALLY~~

now feel my purse bleeding
one week salary gone
but I'm still loving it
muahahaha........

<3 <3 <3 <3

my love~

2009-12-04T19:29:00.004+08:00

I'm in love with this movie

but its only 16 episodes!!
too short...too little...
too lovely...too sweet...too nice..
hahaha...

anyway...I'm fall for this guy..
at first, he doesn't seems to be attractive..
but he's just so cute until I can't stop thinking of him
just can't stop smiling when he pop out my mind
hahahaha...it's my only entertainment and companion in Melb.. .

Name: Jang Geun Suek

I love his eyes
I love his smile
I love his voice
I love his singing (although its just normal)

널 사랑해 …^^

a day = a year

2009-12-01T16:50:00.002+08:00

finally my result is out
it was out yesterday actually
but yesterday have no mood to blog
my result was ok
at least i pass all the subjects
but I got just a PASS for my law
I'm satisfy
I'm only disappointed with my macroeconomics
eiw...I damn sad

nowdays time seems to be passing so slow
even when I'm working I feel like 1 second= 1 hour
when I'm not working, 1 day = 1 year!!!
hmm...52 days more...waiting waiting....

signing off~

2009-11-26T19:20:00.000+08:00

3 days more

result will be out

MONDAY~

excited? nervous?

damn~~

Happy Birthday!!!!

2009-11-22T20:22:00.001+08:00

Birthday Girl~
Happy birthday to you~
Remember, you're mine forever and ever!!!!
Love Love Love you Lots..!!!!!

excited~

2009-11-11T18:50:00.001+08:00

I'm getting excited because I'm discussing with my friend what should we do in Taiwan

the problem is....I'm not sure whether I'm going or not..!!!

sad when thinking this.....................

life after exam~

2009-11-08T18:03:00.003+08:00

OMG!!!
life after exam is really BORING!!
I'm bored to death
and it's just the 3rd day after my exam
it feels like 3 months ago
time is passing really really really really slow
I start to work for 5/6 hours a day for wed, thurs, fri and sat
and my shop is getting really quiet nowdays
because of the hot weather, people seems to choose other food than chinese cuisine!

for your information, weather now in Melbourne is up to 34*C
it's warmer than Malaysia
and it's dry
everyday feeling so warm and stuffy
and when I'm working, I need to stand just beside the bain marie which is up to 60+*c
damn...I'll faint one day when I'm working
how I wish to go back to Malaysia tomorrow!

and my room, got NO FAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
only one air-con in the living room
but it doesn't seems to help much
and I tend to walk a lot here because i got NO CAR!
and I think my took-3months-to-be-fair-skin got dark in just 4 hours outing today!
eiwww....I wanna go back......

signing off.....sweating now..:(

2009-11-05T17:57:00.002+08:00

finally....
finally I finished my exam
anyway...I did badly in my exam today
but I don't care...it's over

so after exam, I went lunch with my sister and Grace
then I went back to my uni
check airfare...OMG..taiwan is cheap
I want to go Taiwan
I've been dreaming to go Taiwan for ages
eiw....I'm persuading my father...
oh Dad, please bring us there..ok?

I went to the beach today
although it was cold
was fun having the wind blowing at me
but it wasn't fun when someone told me that there's a cafe nearby but we ended up like walking back to the city
it's located too far for the NEARBY cafe
I was so frustrated but somehow I cannot get mad coz I have to respect that particular friend due to some reason

anyway, when I was at the beach
I saw some birds
really very stubborn
the wind was so strong, it even can blown me away^^
the birds still fly in the opposite direction of the wind
so....it become still at where it started to fly
hahaha..what a cute bird.......

anyway...there's nothing much again today...
see you guys really soon^^

tata

random~

2009-11-04T17:35:00.002+08:00

tomorrow is my last day of exam
anyway, I'm still half-way studying
just don't feel like bothering =D

just to update you all with my current look
don't laugh..coz I'm fat...haha..

back to study now
tata~

unproductive day

2009-11-03T17:49:00.001+08:00

another unproductive day
as I mentioned, all library closed today
due to public holiday
so I really stayed at home the whole day
woke up at 9+am
don't even remember what I was doing the whole morning
after had my brunch at 11+am, I start to study
I mean I just start to take out my notes
but until now, almost 9pm, I'm still at my 2nd lecture
how am I going to finish my studies
how am I going to sit for the exam on Thursday
my last day of exam

actually, there's nothing to blog about today
but I'm just too boring to study
I'm missing Malaysia
missing Oldtown Kopitiam
missing French Toast
missing Laksa
missing my Mum
.........
=(

exams.....?!

2009-11-02T19:57:00.002+08:00

I had my 3rd paper today - Macroeconomics
really sucks
I dont even know how to answer all the questions
hope that I wont fail

maybe coz of the exam
my mood doesn't seems to be good today
even I went to my favourite cake shop for cakes
I'm still down
and even feel that the cake doesn't taste nice anymore

I hate hot weather
I hate the merciless sun
I hate when I got fat
and I hate when I can't find anything to wear

tomorrow is public holiday, library not opening
I'll be staying at home for the whole day
I've not been staying at home for the whole day since my uni starts
means, July
even during the uni break, I'll go out everyday

I heard about the sad news about UTAR from my friend
its really sad
so life is really short
we should appreciate everything we have and try to be as happy as we can everyday
no one can predict what happen tomorrow
so let's try to use every second we have wisely
and make our life as beautiful as we can
as a friend told me
"life is like a playgroud, we knew it when we were young, but somehow we forget about it when we reach a certain point"
we should treat everyday like we're in a playground
be free and happy like how we were when we were still a kid

signing off...

library~

2009-11-01T16:30:00.003+08:00

a place that I love to go recently is the State Library
the first reason is that the place is comfortable
and it at least help me to concentrate a bit on my studies - coz no food no talking
the second reason is that its so near to the bubble tea that I like
so actually it helps me in gaining weight
but nevermind...I'll just keep fit after exam
gonna end soon!!!! 5th of nov...4 days left...

^^

* THE ONE*

2009-10-29T21:28:00.001+08:00

seems that I haven't mentioned about what happened between me and him during the exams
actually
there wasn't anything happened between us
it's just......
as I said, he's just a stranger to me
so I don't know his name or anything else
but
conincidently
he sat just behind me during the exams
our seats are according to family name
mine is Chan and he's Chang
that's the most shocking moment I've ever had in exams
and that's how I found out his name!

on my first paper
he sat right just behind me
and I can't concentrate on my paper at all
I can't even write properly as I was shivering all the while
and I'm so tired because I don't even dare to lean back
argghhh...making me crazy

on my second paper
means, today
there should be a girl in between me and him
but the girl was absent
so he's just behind me again~
and again...I was shivering
today was even worst because he kept staring at me
maybe coz I'm the one who kept staring at him
anyway...I took a very very long time to calm myself
luckily I get to finish my paper on time
in fact, I managed to finish my paper half an hour before time's up

sadly, today is the last day
won't be seeing him anymore, i guess
goodbye stranger~

and goodnight everyone

HoliDay!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-10-29T12:57:00.003+08:00

i'm done with my first week of exam!
i'm having holiday soon!
i'm saying byebye to someone!
its getting warmer and warmer!

i'm coming back soon!!!
13 weeks more?
wow...i thought will be so soon, but once i look at the calender......13 weeks???!!!!!!!
damn it..

end-of-semester

2009-10-25T20:23:00.002+08:00

woohooo...this semester finally comes to an end
i can't believe that..i've only updates my blog for three times in this semester
and coincidently, beginning, middle and end of my semester
and my exam will start on the 27th Oct, which is day after tomorrow
end on the 5th Nov, which is next thursday
i'm free after that!!!! yooohooo..............................

but there's nothing to be excited about
although my semester ends..i'm still in Australia
guys, i'll only go back on the 21st January
will reach early in the morning..6+am i think...if i'm not mistaken
and will leave on the last day of February
my next semester will begin on the 1st March
still so long to go
what am i going to do in this 3 months???
i'll be so so so bored...

alright...decided...i'll concentrate on getting my 58kg back
i'll need to say bye-bye to about 10kg???!!!!
can i do that? HAHAHA....
i'll try i'll try....

i so so so seldom hear from some of you guys....where have you all been?
or should i ask myself where i've been?
so sorry for not updating coz i really have nothing..nothing...and nothing to talk about
tonight..i have the mood to blog...juse because im so bored of studying and i need to do something to keep me awake for now
i think i'll have to continue my study after this...maybe...=P

for those who ask about the him who appeared in my previous blog...
let me tell you...
he's just a very stranger stranger to me and i don't even know him
but i'll be seeing him on tuesday...i hope............
and details about him...i wont tell coz i dont know at all...
i'll tell if i get to know him...hahaha

i'm waiting to go back...
for family, for friends
for food, for shopping
for me, for myself
i'm missing MALAYSIA!!!!!!!!!!!

what a meaningless blog...
anyway...i'll end here..
hahaha...seems a waste of time writing this...........PEOPLE...DONT READ!!!
by the time you read this...you'll know...you miss me THIS MUCH...........
Good Night!!!

2nd-half semester...

2009-09-17T18:46:00.002+08:00

it's been ages I haven't been logging into my blogger
i have a lot of things to tell
but i don't know what i should tell
so i decided not to blog
but today......i feel like writing something here...
as i think people start to leave out my blog so whatever i wrote here won't be that obvious to anyone

let's talk bout my uni life in Melbourne
it has been 7 weeks
courses that i'm having are intro to acc, commercial law, business computing and macroeconomics
im ok with accounting, business computing and macro...coz it's all similar to what i've learnt in foundation
but im not ok with commercial law
im so so so so so stressed with that
but somehow i will cope with that as much as i can
okay....studies till there...
and i've got a part time job here
and i'll be working for mon, wed, fri and sun
its not hard...and it doesn't affect my studies much at the moment
and i like my supervisor...but she's going to leave soon..
i'm afraid of other supervisor...pray hard for me so that i can get along with them...

i'm so into someone
he's someone i don't know
but i only meet him on monday and tuesday
and in total only 4 hours
i really want to know what's in his mind
argghhhh...god....help me.......
i gonna get crazy soon.....

aiks..i better go sleep soon...
till then...

Enrolment day

2009-07-08T18:08:00.002+08:00

Hi there..
today is my course enrolment day
so i went to uni this morning from 10am-1pm
i proof something today
im not exactly that anti-social anyway
i meet ppl as well okay
at least i know i have to
so im all alone in melbourne now as my sister has gone to adelaide
and that's why im blogging
im way too free

while i was in malaysia, i would love to have cold weather
but when im here, i love malaysia weather
at least i wont have to hide in my blanket for the whole day
it's so cold that i can't even use my comp for long
i have to hide back into my blanket
i rather experience hot than cold
i can hardly walk out
and the weather affects my mood of going out
let's see...its 10.3°C now
i wanna go home.....=(

i have a week more till orientation
omg..what should i do for this whole week alone
i'll be bored to death

... ... ...

WooOOOw

2009-06-30T00:22:00.002+08:00

i can't believe i left my computer for such a long period..
since i'm back from Aus, i hardly face my comp..
i'm just so busy..busy for nothing..

so...now...2 days before i leave Malaysia for Australia again...
ish..just feel like blogging today coz i have a lot to tell..??

okay...let's see..
my trip with my buddies is finally successed...
we went Penang for 3days2 nights and it was fun..
i haven't receive the photos yet so.......upload later kays???

my sister is back from Aus as well coz she lost her purse..
have to get her IC and License back..
she's making an excuse for coming back to Malaysia!

Hanyin, FeFe and YongYong came Ipoh last thursday..
3days2nights again and they were staying at my house..
pity them have to pack in one bed...
this is a makan trip as for the 3 days, i only brought them to food stall, restaurant and food stall..
and we went Penang on the second day only for the CharKeoyTeow and CheeCheongFun..
we missed the Cendol coz of the heavy rain...
we wanted to go Queensbay Mall..
one road mistaken...we headed all the way back to Ipoh..
my fault...im so sorry guys..
anyway..i really hope you guys enjoy the trip..as im not really well-prepared for the trip..
hahaa...

just finished packing before start blogging..
am so tired but have to wait for my sister to come back..
as she don't know how to park the car in...
ish....

i feel so different for my leaving again..
it's so so so much different..
maybe because i knew i'll be back very soon when i first go Aus...
but this time....i hardly see when I'm coming back...
and friends....tears formed and dropped every night i think of all of you..
so.....i'll miss u all...really....

:( signing off.....

May update

2009-05-14T23:03:00.002+08:00

hai there..
so so so so sorry for the so so so so so late update..
back to malaysia memang lazy to online so much...
current post wont have any picture appearing..
coz im lazy to upload..

so let's see...
on the 1st of may..
i went to KL...just for steph..
as her birthday on 1st may..
i've baked a cake for her..
but just simple cake that taste normal... :P

and on the 2nd of may...
i just so happen last minute decide going lee hom's concert...
its worth going..!!!! its a good show...love him!!!

and the days after..
i've been living like...i dont know...
having the same routine everyday..
like sending sister to school...go lunch with mummy..
evening jogging..then cook dinner..send sister to tuition...then sleep...
and it just repeat and repeat everyday....

actually....i have lots to talk about...
but i have like no one to talk about...
coz i dont feel like relaying on any others about this matter..
hmm.......guess i'll update soon...
hopefully...
good night....

summary of April (so far)

2009-04-10T19:55:00.002+08:00

I'll only highlight some special event this month..

First, my sister's birthday..

*pic1-> birthday cake *pic2-> breakfast on birthday

*pic3-> flowers from family *pic4->presents from friends

*pic5->with housemate and highschool friends

*pic6->with ex-colleague

Next, Melbourne Zoo

*pic1-> Lion *pic2-> sleeping lions *pic3-> random me

*pic4-> sister with elephant *pic5-> elephant performing

*pic5-> giraffee *pic6-> zebra

*pic7->random me *pic8-> random sis *pic9-> random me

Lastly, St. Kilda Beach

*pic1-> we on tram *pic2-> we on beach

*pic3->random me *pic4-> random sis

*pic5-> we on beach *pic5-> san churros

picture of the day!! ^^

Random post again

2009-03-30T21:18:00.002+08:00

i've not updating my blog again
as usual im damn boring today
i look over and over again at my old time photos
haha...i really changed a lot..
and im kinda not-nice-looking before..
hahahaha...

and found these 3 nice photos..
cant really remember i've been to such nice place..
Japan..during new year years ago...
so nice...just feel like going back again...

so..till then.....

13 days to go...

Specially dedicated to Sweety Yong

2009-03-21T21:01:00.003+08:00

sorry for abanding my blog for such a long time..
its not coz im lazy..
but its coz my life so dull that i dont really have a thing i can say here..
and i dont want my blog to look like my daily schedule reporting where i've been what i've done..
but today..
i did something and honestly..im proud..
i dont know whether it helps but im really glad i can help...

yes yong...
im talking bout you..
thank you so much for ur post about me..
and im kinda speechless seriously..
erm..like...yea...just thank you..
hahaha...
seriously...
im glad im 8 enough that i can really get to solve ur probs..
and i really hope that what u wish is what u get..
hahaa...
i'll pray hard as promise...(coz of the Jogoya meal)
hahaha...
i love u too la sweety...
thanks a lot for the tonnes of compliments today...

till then......

2009-03-14T08:30:00.002+08:00

my days are getting more and more dull
i did nothing everyday except wandering around the city
for not wasting my tram ticket, we went to the South Melbourne Beach..
it was 7something and the sky was so nice..
it started to become windy and the wind was cold..
we walked along the beach for a while then we headed home..

i couldn't sleep well these days

slept late woke early

things keep running through my mind

memories of my life with my family

memories of my life with my buddy in secondary school

memories of my life with .3 friends in KL

memories of him cheering up my life

and these make me felt that I'm empty here

I'm not someone independant

I'm someone who need to rely on someone

I'm someone that will be completely quiet infront of strangers
but I'm someone need accompany slightly more than any others

in the dark room, seeing my sister sleeping soundly

looking at the sky with stars

imagining what are you guys doing there

imagining how's my life if I'm there with you all now

imagining how's my life if I never met you all

feeling more and more lonely and empty

feeling our distance getting far apart

feeling my heart still sticking to you all

feeling how important you are to me

a friend asked me

why must we be seperated?

I said

this is life

she asked again

why must life be like this?

what can i answer for this?

these questions I've asked myself for millions of times when I was in KL

I can't get any answer

this is what we must face in our entire life

maybe this is the challenges that we need to get through

testing how strong our bond is

some of us get through it easily

but some of us don't

this is how we become mature

this is how we become tough in life

we can live our life without each other

coz human have the ability of adapting to new environment

we must improve ourselves than staying back in memories

we must walk all the way down toughly

this morning I randomly read someone's blog

someone that I don't really know

and I found one interesting theory mentioned by him

(sorry for copying ur post here =P )

he said his teacher showed them an experiment

using 2 papers and glue

2 papers = boy and girl

glue = relationship bond

so the teacher stick both papers together with the glue

and tear it out after

part of the paper with glue stain looks imperfect, torn badly

it means when the relationship ends, it somehow hurt the person you lvoe and left a wound as 'souvenirs'

a scar permanently marked in their heart

although the wound will get well but the scar will stay forever

we thought we're recover because we cant's see the scar from outside

but we'll still feel the pain if you touch it long after

this theory is so similar with the one my friend told me

something that he left on me didn't he take away from me when he left

why those people so smart get to think of this experiment expressing a person's feeling so truely

this post seems so dragging

I better stop here

till then

*28 days to go~

2009-03-11T19:10:00.002+08:00

today is the most meaningful day i've been here..
i woke up at 11am...
and i went for gym..
and i went for swimming..
then i went for spa..
and after i bath i went out meet my sister..
coz she went out for class..
then we went for lunch..
and again lunch with my cousin..
and walk around the city till 7.30..
then back home..
then cook dinner..
then eat and wash..
then now blog..
omg..
i am so damn sien..!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and my mood not so good la..
coz saw something..
and feel something....

Ballerina

2009-03-10T18:39:00.003+08:00

i forget to tell about swan..
in Docklands, i saw a swan swimming alone..
and i saw how elegant it swam...
i understand now why ballerina always use swan as a character..
like ballet Swan Lake, Odette (white/good swan) is so elegant so nice throughout the whole performance...
swan is the best to describe a ballerina...

just a sample of swan

Odette (the character)

and so that's my feeling today..

haha..weird suddenly have this kind of comment..

till then..

2009-03-10T17:58:00.003+08:00

this morning again i woke up late..
11something..
and so when i was having my breakfast..
my sister suddenly yelled...
'omg...i need to go out now..i have a career fair which will be held until 1pm'..
so then i quickly get myself ready and go with her..
we're there 15mins before 1pm..
but......as i am not a student of RMIT..im not allowed to go for the fair..
so i waited for my sister outside..
and i sat under the bright sun...
last time in Malaysia i'll nvr go under the sun..
but now i choose to sit under the sun as its so warm so comfortable..

we thought of going to the beach after that..
but we ended up going Docklands..which is just located opposite where the career fair was held..
i was so shocked to see a lot of jellyfish there..
and it was just a place where those yatch parked...
and the surface of the water is full of yellowish-orange and blue-ish purple jellyfish...
oh..its so cute...

pic1&2 -> yellowish orange and blue-ish purple jellyfish..

pic3&4 -> blue-ish purple and yellowish prange jellyfish...*hahaha...lame..

the last one is the full view of the water surface..

those white spots are all those jellyfish

then we had a rest in a cafe..

and these were what we ordered..

strawberry shakes for me..chocolate shakes for sister..

tiramisu for us..

and i syok syok go ask my sister take picture of me..

tada...me with partial view of Docklands..

then we went for grocery shopping again..

and headed home..

had dinner and will have supper soon..

ish..dont think my on-diet plan will work..

ish...!!!!

34 days to go~

Coinciddently

2009-03-09T20:12:00.002+08:00

another ordinary day
woke up 12something
then had breakfast/lunch
then went for laundry
then back home dry cloths
then keep watching The Heart of Greed for the 4th times
then went dinner with my cousin

cousin Clare with me..and my baggy there..hahaha..

and my dinner.....1st-> mushroom pizza..damn nice

2nd->tiger prawn pizza

lastly-> dessert -- tiramisu

and then we went for grocery shopping

but end up i bought a lot of timtam

gonna be damn fat real soon

and i promised not going for the fireworks right?

but then i still saw it today

COINCIDENTLY saw it when my tram passed by the river..

omg...its so nice coz i have the full view of the fireworks..

but unfortunately i cant take any photos..

ish.......

but i can see it...BEAUTIFUL!!!!!!!!!

till then

signing off...

Moomba Fest again~

2009-03-08T20:21:00.003+08:00

its sunday..
and i woke up extraordinary early...
and so i waited my sis to get ready and we went yum cha..
so here's my dim sum..
just part of it..
coz i lazy to take pic when i started eating..
muahaha...

pic1->Shanghai Soup Bao

pic2->Yong Mushroom

pic3-> Prawn Dumpling

after eating..
we went shopping again..
nah..just grocery shopping...
but end up we bought a pair of shoes each..
muahaha...and i broke my record..
i bought a red shoes...no colourful shoes appear before in my life..and this is the first..

so we've cook for dinner..
we had Cola Pork Chop...with Brocoli..
not too bad..
but i end up with another muffin with bacon and nutella...
and then we get ready for the fireworks again..
here we go.....

its so cold today...really cold..

so that's the fun park...

and there you go...

15 mins fireworks..

finally successful in snapping them...

and so im home now..

trying to chat with yong yong but she end up dumping me for viwawa...

but luckily melmel still accompany me..

thanks melmel..

hahaha..

really hope to meet you all real soon...

till then...

sister

2009-03-07T21:38:00.002+08:00

i just went to see fireworks with my sister..
and she says she looks nice today..
so i decided to blog only her photos...
no photo of me today..
muahaha...

and seriously those fireworks are colourful..

sadly my camera sucks...

canto take nice pics of it..

nvm..i saw it with my eyes enough edi..

oh ya..

i wanted to agree with yong yong's previous blog..

the one about him..

i really feel that thehim is nice..

he really very gentleman
i chat with him i'll laugh

i dont know why...

me n yong decided to snatch..

hahahaha..

but yong....i tell you....

long distance can stay..!!!

as long as if he loves me and i love him..

haha..

but impossible la..

so many competitor...

you and me might lose to someone..

hahahaha...

we wont know..

hahaha...

ok la..

till then lo....

random photos

2009-03-06T18:20:00.004+08:00

just upload some random photos here..

pic1&2(up) => tempura udon *my sister's dinner

pic3&4(down) => me with my eel sushi burger =P

pic1&3 => took today..looking damn tired..

pic2 => dont know when i took that..just upload..

pic1 => my Sian first time make cupcake
pic2 => 2nd time making cupcake..getting better and better..

pic 1 => went to chapel street last week i think

pic 2 => went to the japan festival thingy

damn tired today..

gonna sleep soon..

till then

freezing

2009-03-05T18:50:00.002+08:00

its a cold day
highest 14, lowest 11..
like no different
from morning till now..
damn cold..
really freezing..
i wore my damn thick coat still i feel cold inside..
ish....
i prefer warm weather..
hahahaha....

so nothing much happen today..
except im really irritated by some kind of unrespectful relative...
ish...!!!!
dont talk about them..

by the way..
i didn't accept my offer of marketing in Rmit
coz i change my preference to accounting..
so the thing i have to do now is wait...
AGAIN...

gonna sleep now..kinda tired today..
till then...

2009-03-03T15:12:00.002+08:00

after long wait
i finally receive the offer letter..
and so i have a choice..
monash or rmit..
and due to financial prob..
i chose rmit..which is 6k lesser then monash annually

but my mood isn't that good as i expected when i receive the letter
i myself dont know why
and im not feeling well for the whole day
like im going to faint anytime

i've change my flight
will be reaching kl on 12th April 0700
till then

2009-03-02T19:17:00.003+08:00

i miss them ~~

muahahaha..

i've been at home for the whole day again..

but today im kinda in a good mood..

hahaha..

i've chatted with shir for 3 hours..

and keep recalling all the memories while we were in primary and secondary..

muahaha...

a lot of fun remember how crazy we were..

and so chat chat chat..

suddenly decide to have a day out...

wearing our pj ts...

and go back to school canteen to have our meal..

and will WALK to where we used to go last time before we go tuition..

and might find our tuition teacher...

so it's like a day of refreshing all the memories..

hahaha...

i'm waiting for the day...

i wanna go back as soon as possible then..

hahahahaha..

omg...im out of control..

ish....calm calm calm...

hmmm...nothing much to tell today again..

but tomorrow might be a busy day out with my relatives..

will update some photos soon...

my blog looks dull now..

till then..

2009-03-01T15:09:00.001+08:00

boo hoo...
erm...
i did nothing again today..
and....these 2 days were cold..
im like..loving the weather...
so...nothing much to say today...
will blog again soon..
tata...

你常问我，我到底放得下他吗?
其实，是我自己选择不要忘记他!
我曾经努力的试着忘记，但我怎么也忘不了。
既然忘不了，我选择把他深深的埋在心里，
他就成为我生命中的其中一段故事。
我会试着不往回看，只向未来看齐。
朋友，千万别担心我!
没有他的日子我会活得更好!
爱你们喔，muacks!!!

2009-02-24T18:08:00.002+08:00

today i went for an apartment inspection with my sister in the morning..
because the current apartment we're staying now is almost due for leasing..
and that's why we need to find a new apartment..
today's apartment wasn't too bad..
it's quite big..but just a bit...dirty..
and i dont like the toilet too small..
haha...not enough space for me to do anything there...

after that..we went for a movie..
"Slumdog Millionaire"-kinda Indian type of movie (but it speaks english)
this movie won the Oscar Award..
at first..
i thought that this kind of Oscar movie should be those very artistic and hardly to understand kind of movie..
but i found this movie quite interesting and so creative of them telling a story out by recalling while answering the questions..
and all the things so make sense..
i love it overall..
i don't know whether it shows in Malaysia..
but i really recomment this show to all of you there..

that's all for now..
gonna sleep soon..
till then...

2009-02-22T17:17:00.003+08:00

today i woke up around 12pm
then watch drama till 4 something
then my sister and i went for the 'OSAKA TWILIGHT FESTIVAL'
i thought it will be very happening..but its actually nothing much..
i saw many ppl wearing yukata and it actually looks nice on everyone..
haha...
and the food stall there smells really great...
but we din even bother to taste them...
then we went dinner at japanese restaurant..
while on the way back..
we saw explotion case..
actually it's a van...burning up..
not yet explode..
we waited for it to explode actually..
muaahahaha...
but it didn't explode at the end..
so disappointed la...
but i do enjoy walking home everyday..
coz i love the wind..and i love the sunlight..
yea....

this is where the festival held..

its a nice place there..very comfy..

see..lots of them wearing yukata..

the performer practising at the back of the stage...

tada...me with the japan thingy..i dont know its name..

lots of people there..

but it wasn't so interesting there..

till then..

tata..!!!

tagged by yen

2009-02-21T18:58:00.002+08:00

001. Real name → Melissa Chan
002. Nickname(s)→ Mel and MC
004. Zodiac sign → Leo
005. Male or female → Female
006. Elementary → Ave Maria Convent
007. Middle School → Ave Maria Convent
008. High School → none
009. College School → Taylor's University College
010. Hair color → Black
011. Long or short → Medium
012. Loud or Quiet → ask my friend to know the truth
013. Sweats or Jeans → Jeans
014. Phone or Camera → Phone
015. Health freak → Nah
016. Drink or Smoke? → drink, drank, drunk
017. Do you have a crush on someone? not sure
018. Eat or Drink → wth
019. Piercings → Yes
020. Tattoos → hoping to get one
FIRSTS:
023. First piercing → Form5, and that's that last as well
024. First best friend → i don't really know when i realise who's by first best friend
025. First award → First runner-up in Maths Competition in primary school
026. First crush → Form 3
027. First pet → my puppy which has been stolen
028. First big vacation → Australia in 2003
030. First big birthday → every year is big
CURRENTLY:
049. Eating → cake that's as hard as stone
050. Drinking → plain water
052. I'm about to → sleep
053. Listening to → You're My Angle - Loretto Chow
054. Plans for today → sleep whole day
055. Waiting for → replies from those i miss
OUR FUTURE:
058. Want kids?→ depends
059. Want to get married? → depends
060. Careers in mind → something with salary that's enough for me to spend
WHICH IS BETTER IN THE BOY/GIRL YOU LIKE?
068. Lips or eyes → Eyes
070. Shorter or taller? → tall like someone
072. Romantic or spontaneous → depends
073. Nice stomach or nice arms → depends
074. Sensitive or loud→ depends
075. Hook-up or relationship → depends
076. Trouble maker or hesitant → better dont
HAVE YOU EVER:
080. Lost glasses/contacts → nop
081. Ran away from home → yea...when i was young
082. Held a gun/knife for self defense → nop
083. Killed somebody → of coz no
084. Broken someone's heart → yea...i did..
085. Been arrested → by my mother??!!
087. Cried when someone died → yes
DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
089. Yourself → not really
090. Miracles → no
091. Love at first sight → i was once having
092. Heaven → maybe
093. Santa Claus → nah..i dont think so
094 Tooth Fairy--> not at all
095. Kiss on the first date -> depends how it happen
ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
097. Is there one person you want to be with right now → definitely
098. Are you seriously happy with where you are in life → maybe
099. Do you believe in God → Yes
100. Post as 100 truths and tag 10 people --> nah...dont really like to tag ppl..

2009-02-21T18:29:00.002+08:00

i woke up early this morning..
as im going yum cha with my housemate for her birthday..
and then we went shopping...
like..im just window shopping..
and she's finding a pair of ankle boots i think..
then we loiter loiter loiter..back home around 5..
then i sleep sleep sleep...till now..9..
im so so so tired..
not physically tired..but mentally tired...

how i become tired..let me tell...
last night..a friend of thehim texted me..
and i didnt reply since i was sleeping..
then i replied this morning while i was walking out to the yum cha place..
and so it happen to be we chatted for quite sometime...
long enough to let me know that thehim said wanted to get a partner..
as he hadn't been dating for quite sometime..
and at that moment..
i started day dreaming for the whole day..
i don't really eat much when yum cha..
i don't really shop..and friends should know how strange it is for me not to shop..
and....my mind just cant stop thinking since i saw that text..
coz i found out...how idiotic the last post have be...
how idiotic i am..
how idiotic my thinking is...
but still...i wish i can be that idiotic till he married...

aisk..idiotic ppl mmg know sendiri idiotic but yet continue to be idiotic..
nah...i just wish to have an answer years later..that's all...

til then..gonna make my brain stop functioning now..
night guys..

2009-02-21T08:02:00.003+08:00

yesterday i wanted to blog..

but i was too tired to blog..

haha..

i bought quite a lot of things this few days..

i bought few casual dresses..

and i bought bikini..

muahaha...but it's so not my style and so not my colour...

ish...but i won't hate it actually..

hahaha...

and i baked a cake yesterday..

for my housemate's birthday..

first time baking a cake..

and it looks great..

paiseh paiseh...

and it taste good as well..

muahahaha.........

hmm...let see the pic of my cake..

tadada...hahahaha..im loving it...

oh ya...im so into one song now..

"I Won't Last A Day Without You" by Jolin Tsai..

actually is an old song by Carpenters..

but i love the softer version by Jolin..

it's in my playlist here...

take some time to enjoy the song..

muahaha...

going out soon..

will update more later...

til then...

2009-02-18T13:39:00.009+08:00

hi there..

i got nothing to do now except blogging..
for no reason, i cant sleep well last night...
and for no reason, i woke very early this morning..
again for no reason...i cant get into sleep now...
once again for no reason...i cant get my mind stop thinking of all the things...

i feel like talking to someone but i cant find anyone to talk to at this very moment..
as some of my friends know..
i've been disturbed by some issue these few days..

guys..i've been so free staying at home whole day..
and no one online today.....
i miss you all in ipoh..
and i miss you all in kl...
hmmmm.....hope to see you guys soon...
love, muacks..!

we're apart for almost a year..
and i guess you dont know how often i think of you
and i guess you dont know how deep are you still in my heart..
i dont think you'll know the existence of this blog..
and i dont think you really will know what i think...
i always wonder...how we'll be now if we never be apart..
and i always wonder...how we'll be when i got back years later..
will i be seeing you with your lover?
or will i be seeing you waiting me to go back..?
you always tell me that future things..future only say..
but do you know im dying for the answer everyday?
i wish i know the answer so that i know what i should do now!
i wish i know what's the reason..and i wish i know what's exactly in your mind now
will it be the same as what your friend told me? or will it be like what you actually told me?
i hope...its like what your friend said..
i rather believe your friend than you..
because i dont wish tha truth is exactly what you said...
i miss those days when you care bout me..
i miss those days that you;re with me day and night..
and i miss you...

i wonder if your heart feels pain when you think of me..like what i actually feels everyday now?
i wonder if you smile when you think of me...like what i do when i remember how happy we were?
i love to be at kl last time coz i have no time at all to think of you..
but i rush back to ipoh every weekend coz i still feel desperate to see you at least once in a week..
and now im in australia...
i cant find a chance to spy on you..
i cant find a chance to at least watch you play basketball from your back without you knowing?
i appreaciate the last day i saw you..
im glad that you never blame me for what i've done that day..
and i really glad to see what you wrote "i'll always be there guide g you'..
this is what i hope to hear from you personally actually..
i never cried since im here coz i remember what you told me in the past..
I.M.I.S.S.Y.O.U.
can you hear me???????
:(

4th day in aussie

2009-02-16T17:18:00.002+08:00

i'm still fine here..
went to RMIT today..
submitted my forms..
and i'll need to wait for another 2 weeks to get my reply..
yea......im boring..!!!!!

what can i do now is online, sleep and SLEEP...!

those who promised me to online:

WHERE YOU ALL BEEN?????

:(

2009-02-13T20:08:00.002+08:00

hi there
im currently in Australia
touched down this morning and the time now here is 11.09pm..
3 hours ahead from Malaysia
i've been sleeping throughout the whole noon till now and am going to continue my dream after this post

alright...now i should give a statement here which i can conclude today..
curse will forever more efficient than wishes..!!!
and...yea..im too late for my february intake
all i can do is to enrol in july..
and im going back to Malaysia latest by April
sorry la guys you all 'white send' me...
but....you all need not send me again in July..
dont worry...

hmm...i dont really have the mood...
and i....really got nothing to say...
i miss someone...
i should have stayed and i should have fight for him...
stupid fella...always made the wrong decision...
or should say...always having the unlucky star with me...
this happen ever since someone left me...
i was in so a perfect life before...
sobx..is past tense now...

night guys!

life after exam

2009-01-22T14:34:00.002+08:00

finally i've done with my business foundation
i've finished my fimal exam on the 20th of Jan
and i had a wonderful day with my classmate

we finished our exam at 4 and we went to midvalley
we ate at pasta zenmai and we had fun, really
after that we shop shop walk walk
me and melmel went bowling with that gang of boys
it was really fun and i left early coz i need to fetch my sister
when i was in car alone
i feel lonely
and i suddenly dont feel like leaving
i never expect i can mix so well with 3.3
and i really never expect i'll miss them that much
iloveyouall, 3.3....

my schedule from today onwards is like so pack
i'll be going to bandung from this sun till wednesday
then i'll go back to ipoh till 30th morning
and i'll have to go back to kl again till either 1st or 2nd of feb
then i'll go back to ipoh again till 5th and leave to China on the 6th
i'll be back to malaysia on the 10th and will be in ipoh on the 11th and leaving to australia on the 12th midnight
and...when will be my real free time to spend with my friends
omg...i'll miss you all till mad...i swear...

anyway..guys..i wish you all the best and good luck in either taylors or monash
i wish that we can meet again in 1 or 2 years time..or..in a few months time.
hahaha...tata..

2009-01-18T19:31:00.002+08:00

there's a kitten in my kitchen
anyone can help????!!!!!!!

=(

an article

2009-01-18T18:32:00.002+08:00

i've read an article
"how to differentiate 'like' and 'love'?"
anyone know?
hmm..just feel like posting that

when you like someone, you wish to be with him
because he will always bring happiness to you;
after he leave, you will miss and will smile when you think of it,
then you will live your normal life again, while waiting for the next outing with him.

when you love someone, you want to be with him, its hard to leave them,
because you afraid that he'll suffer and worried that he can't take care of himself;
after he leave, you will miss and will sigh when you think of it.
you will ask yourself 'how's he doing now?', and you will love your normal life, waiting for him to be by your side.

the one you like is like an angel, can make anything possible and will always fulfill your needs.
the one you love is like a child, you wont't expect him to do anything good, but you love to see his every action that makes you laugh.
you wish the one you like to accompany you, but you might be thinking of the one you love at that moment.
you wish that the one you love is by your side, seeing him sleeping like a baby, you will smile, feeling so happy.

when the one you like hurts you, you will get angry, and you will only forgive him if he makes you smile again.
when the one you love hurts you, you will only keep quiet, because you know you will scare him away if you make noise,
you will look into his eyes, once found the guilt in his eyes, you will hug him and he will be forgave.

you can like many people at the same time, you wish to be with many people,
but after a long time, you found that you only love him, the only him, which won't change.
you thought that you've forget about him sometimes, actually you just aren't free to think of him.

for the one you like, you emphasize on his good
for the one you love, you emphasize on his bad
and those bad things, you will feel that its cute, which is very unique.

like and love is just slightly different.
any love begins from like
someday when you found that the one you like is no longer perfect,
and you saw the helpless side if him,
and you feel that you prefer him to be helpless infront of you,
you're feelings towards him is upgraded to love!

friday in Pavilion

2009-01-16T18:37:00.002+08:00

today only have 2 hour class
which started from 8..ended at 10
then we went to Pavilion to celebrate sweety yong's birthday
hahaha...it was fun to hang out with all them
full of laughter and i love shopping
nothing much to say about today actually

oh ya...wanna complain about Pavilion Forever 21
there are 2 stuff there..girls..
damn rude to customer
they just tell out in front of the customer this :" they were in since just now and i feel like asking them to shut up!"

is that a proper attitude of a worker?????
shouldnt we have customer rights?
omg..i was burning by that time..
i just keep talking bad loudly in front of them
i dont care whether they heard it or not
i just beh song...!!!!!!!

i washed someone's brain today
hahaha..seems so bad..
but im just telling all the truth
seriously
100% truth
but he end up saying he wanna stay neutral abit...
muahaha....

that's all i think..
those who intersted in yong's birthday photo can refer to melwong's blog..*i think*
tata..

a day off from college

2009-01-14T23:02:00.002+08:00

i am not ponteng
is just that i need not go to college today
my speaking test completed yesterday
so i have the permission not to go to college today

i woke up around 8
wishing them good luck in speaking test
then i slept again
woke around 10
then started t0 clean my house
as my parents will be here during the weekend
omg...how am i going to study like that

after that...i bathe..
then i went to pay for my condo's maintainance fee and water bill...
it cost me RM157..its so expensive..
then i took another RM496 to help my father's company take stock at sunway there...
after i've done all those i go fetch Soon Ken..
his class dismiss at 3.30..
we went 1u...

he took glasses..then we went for a movie..
i dont know what that movie call in english..
the sammi cheng and eason chen one..
not bad
a bit funny
i ate a lot today..
all blame on Soon Ken..
aiks...fattttis....muahaha..suddenly think of this word..

now at home
thinking about something someone told me just now
he told me he's having stressful life
at first i thought my life is stressful enough to make me breathless
but after i heard from him, i feel that my life is just so simple and not complicated at all
all the while i've been making myself feel miserable and complicated
and if i think just a little bit wider...
i might have be the happiest person now
because....i have family, friends, education, financial, and my loves one all with me
i should have just feel satisfied and live happily ever after..
i dont face problems like other ppl do
i dont suffer like other ppl do
im just so 'bahagia'..
im satisfied now
ilovehim for telling me how 'bahagia' i am now
thank you

oh ya...he smsed me
thank me for the present
i feel relieved that my present doesnt get lost in no where
as you know, pos laju is not that trust worthy but i have no choice
hmm...i hope he like that..
and...an hour more will be his birthday..
i hereby..wishing him....

HAPPY BIRTHDAY..
and stay happily ever after...!
with love...

that all..good night...

2009-01-13T10:44:00.002+08:00

wow...
i've not been updating for so long..
i've nothing to talk about my life..
damn it..
im just so boring everyday...

today is tuesday..
and i just finished my speaking test..
overall ok...but i think there's a lot of lar! mah! lor!..
haha..i think miss will understand me..
im just a typical malaysian..

now im in EA3..
having bst classs...
but im just so boring till i blog..
omg...i dont like to do maths any longer..

this week i dont need to send and fetch my sister..
i got more time to sleep..
like yesterday..
i slept from 8pm till this morning...
its just so bahagia.....

i want to go back to ipoh...
from this week onwards i wont be going back for this whole month...
oh my....
im missing him..
i wanted to see him..
i wanted to chat with him...
muahahaha..
no one will know who is the him..
aiks....crapping...

that's all....
tata...

tagged by yen

2008-12-16T19:39:00.002+08:00

1. What's your ambition?
Alright, what's my ambition...anything...as long as i can earn!

2. How often do you think of committing suicide?
commit suicide? never found in my dictionary..=P

3. Do you think you have enough confidence?
im full of confidence all the time.......in some particular thing..

4. How many babies you want?
babies..? can i dont have 1?

5. Do you believe in seeing rainbow after the rain?
i often see that after rain

6. What is your goal for this year?
get into RMIT

7. Do you believe in eternity love?
not reli

8. What do you say about your life now?
in a complete mess

9. What feeling do you love the most?
my heart beats when i saw someone

10. What are the requirements you wish from the other half?
1st -- tall
others -- doesnt matter as long as he loves me

11. Is there anything you want to tell the people you hate?
nothing more to tell

12. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
i think so

13. What does flying means to you?
freedom?

14. What do you crave for the most currently?
nothing coz currently on diet!

15. Where would your ultimate vacation spot be?
japan maybe

16. Describe the person who tagged you in 7 words.
7 words?
you're everything to me in my life!

17. What have you done to yourself that make yourself happy?
find thesomeone

18. What will you become in another 10 years to come?
out of this mess probably

19. What is your lucky number?
dont have one!

20. What is your favourite food?
anything from IPOH

People to tag:
can i dont tag anyone?

2008-12-14T18:34:00.002+08:00

today i stayed in KL..
so i woke up and i cooked my breakfast...
damn it..!!!
i burned 2 fingers...OMG...damn pain..!!
now my fingers are totally cooked...
aiks...i cant even hold my chopstick properly...
damn sad weh...!!!!

this part..specially to SIAN, YEN, YIN and SHIR...
i miss you all la girls..
when can i meet you all...
when can i hang out with you all..
i dont want gap with you all..
i wanna keep everything remain the same even though i'm not around starting next year...
i hope i can do it..
i just hope that...
and....today i heard some of the old songs.....
and i found this song...
F4's di yi shi jian...
the lyrics make me keep thinking of you all...
hmm...dedicate this song to you all..
i love you...MUACKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

please listen to this song here..!

lyrics here...
THIS SONG GOES OUT TO ALL THOSE SPECIAL PEOPLE IN MY HEART
BUT THAT ONE PERSON THAT MATTERS THE MOST
YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE
DOESN'T MATTER FOR NOW,
DOESN'T MATTER LATER
ALL I GOTTA DO IS MAKE THAT CALL
TURN AROUND, THERE YOU ARE
AND SO TO YOU FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART
I WANNA SAY ONE THING
THANK YOU
累了不要見外　把我挖起來　吐個痛快
看不慣朋友有難　誰還冷冷的圍觀
我的手心為你握起來
煩了不要見外　把我找出來　陪你負擔
續杯咖啡的溫暖　一直暖到你想開
你心情的坑洞讓我來填滿
昨天會被今天明天來取代
動心的感情不會淘汰　關心常在
就算你我在熱鬧喧嘩中走散
友情會第一時間趕來
讓跳亂的心平躺下來
重新的呼吸簡單　
深深的　滿滿的
朋友只要你被孤單壓的叫不出來
我第一時間送出關懷
熱熱的眼神陪你看開
找回那片大自然　
圍著你抱緊你相信你我確定

2008-12-06T18:29:00.003+08:00

its a different me today..

no sleeves with hairband..

muahaha..just thought of trying something new...

sick day...

2008-12-05T22:37:00.002+08:00

when you get used to rely on someone

you'll get lonely most of the time

leave the lights on when im gone..

i need to find my way home..

my new semester

2008-12-03T20:40:00.002+08:00

its my new semester..
and it will be my last semester too...~hopefully~
will be leaving real soon d..
aiks...hope that i can leave with the expression that i had promised..
very very damn unlucky...im chosen to be the ass class rep..
is not a good thing...

eh....2 thing...
one...i started to hate someone...
second...i started to fall for someone..
hahaha...
eh...
the first is like so.......i dont know what word to describe...
only one word.....UNTAHANABLE....~~
what i do is none of your business..
when no one ask for your comment...
please do not sound out anything......

the second one...confusing...
i dont know why he seems can read my mind..
whenever i get mad and tell myself not to find him anymore...
he will definitely text me..
and i'm like failed to leave...
aiks...unbearable again...~

just a not so meaningful blog...
aiks...damn sien..
i need stats text book..!!!!!!!

2008-11-25T18:58:00.002+08:00

hoho....

photos for today..

went out with my mum and sister today..

brought my sister to hospital for x-ray for her braces thingy..

was pujuk-ing my mum to let me do too..

but i failed....

aiks....

i want braces...!!!!!!!

aiks..something happened last 2 days...

and im fed up...mad...aiks....

luckily there's someone i can rely on..

at least i can laugh when im with the someone...

muahaha..

tomorrow my elder sister is coming back..

sad case..another person who will keep on kacau me 24/7...

aiks........

but i do miss her a lot..

haha...

that's all...

A LoVe StOrY BeGinS

2008-11-23T17:56:00.002+08:00

We were both young, when I first saw you

I close my eyes and the flashback starts

I’m standing there, on a balcony of summer air
I see the lights, see the party, the ball gowns

I see you make your way through the crowd

You say hello, little did I know…
That you were Romeo, you were throwing pebbles

And my daddy said “stay away from Juliet”

And I was crying on the staircase

Begging you please don’t go…And I said…

Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone

I’ll be waiting, all there’s left to do is run

You’ll be the prince and I’ll be the princess,

It’s a love story, baby, just say yes

So I sneak out to the garden to see you

We keep quiet, because we’re dead if they knew

So close your eyes

Escape this town for a little while

Cause you were Romeo, I was a scarlet letter,

And my daddy said “stay away from Juliet”

But you were everything to me

I was begging you, please don’t go…And I said...

Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone

I’ll be waiting, all there’s left to do is run

You’ll be the prince and I’ll be the princess

It’s a love story, baby, just say yes

Romeo save me, they’re trying to tell me how to feel

This love is difficult, but it’s real

Don’t be afraid, we’ll make it out of this mess

It’s a love story, baby, just say yes…

I got tired of waiting

Wondering if you were ever coming around

My faith in you was fading

When I met you on the outskirts of town...And I said...

Romeo save me, I’ve been feeling so alone

I keep waiting, for you but you never come

Is this in my head, I don’t know what to think

He kneels to the ground and pulled out a ring and said....
Marry me Juliet, you’ll never have to be alone

I love you, and that’s all I really know

I talked to your dad-you’ll pick the white dress

It’s a love story, baby just say…YES…

2008-11-22T00:08:00.002+08:00

Happy Birthday,

Shirley

hoho...
my lovely sweetheart shir shir is becoming 18 today..
and she's now finally legal for everything...
hahaha...let's have some fun now on...
dont ever try to dump me from your life..
i'll be haunted for you for my whole life..
haha..
stay sweet stay pretty stay smart...
love you always..
muacks........

johor..im coming..

2008-11-20T11:47:00.002+08:00

im now in my car..
on my journey to Johor..
first time visiting..
and the purpose of going Johor is to accompany my dad for site visits..
i hate to follow as it spoils all my plans for my holiday..
i planned to go out with my friends today to buy birthday present for my dearest Shirley..
aiks..now i dont even know whether i can go back on time to celebrate her birthday..
he's just so self centred..
alwayss poiled our plans..
aiks....

yea im havung my 2 weeks break now..
and...i have nothing special to tell out here..
think so my friends had fun in Port Dickson for the pass few days..
hmm..sad that i couldn't go with them..
sorry guys...

hmm..i've been back at Ipoh for so many days...
i hadn't meet any of my friend except for sweetheart..
i went movie with him...Madagascar 2..
i've watched that twice before i watch with him..
he doesn't know until we've bought the ticket..
haha...haiya..is a nice show ma...
i dont mind watching it so many times...
so...during the movie..i was so tired and so i slept on his shoulder..
muahaha..he wont mind i think..
after movie..we went dinner...i mean...supper...as it's late..
we had McDonalds..
then...we went yum cha at the Oldtown nearby..
we met a pretty tall girl..
omg..she's damn pretty...
and i was shock that sweetheart knew her..
eiks....that stupid fellow go simply admit me as his gf..
blek...who wants to be ur gf..
hmppp...=P
then i went home around 12.30am...and my mum was like..staring at me..
hahaha...

that night..i had a dream...
dream of ck and him...
and was like...ck is back to me again..
and so coincidently...
the next morning..
i went lunch at ck's shop..
woohoo...there's an unexplainable happiness in me..
i was like smilling all the way to Kl..
hahaha...and i made a chance to meet him again when i got back...
muahahahahaha.....

i am damn boring in the car...
i finished one novel and going to start another one after this..
such a long time i never blog..
hahaha....i love blolgging....
as i can express something that i couldn't express to anyone else..
haha..
till then...

unfavourable day

2008-11-09T19:57:00.002+08:00

grey is my colour today..
aiks..
dont know what's happening..
today is like...so not my day..
i had bad dreams...
i mean real bad till my pillows are all wet...
and till when i wake up...i close my eyes..
i saw the thing..omg..
the thing is just everywhere..
i dont know when it will disappear..
i hope it disappear..but on the other hand...i dont hope so..

aiks....
then i wake and i study..
omg...the thing appear in my notes..
and is like everywhere of my notes..
im going to be crazy soon..
real soon....
then i go drink water..
i wash my cup..
and.....plang plang plang....piak....
my cup....omg...my fav cup...gone...sobz...
sorry cup...i dont wish that to happen...

then went out lu...with mel and wj...
omg...2700...i love my 2700 LV...
i want that...i really want that...omg..
ok la..nothing much to say..
just that i really hate that dream...
but im glad to see that thing there..
coz i know...he's still in me..

hope i'll spend my life here beside you in every way
coz i have nothing left to be on this earth today...

2008-10-31T11:42:00.001+08:00

Quote by Steph...
support this..!!!

"The way he talk is like a superlittlekancil that are going out of petrol,

it keep cucuk my ear like how BMW cucuk Kerani on the highway."

accounting and english presentation

2008-10-30T20:44:00.004+08:00

hmm..
i had presentation today..
accounting and english...
and i can say that...is not good..
as im not well-prepared..
but im sure..if im prepared..i'll be blank once i step out to the front..
that's what it happen when i present my econ in a few weeks back...
hmm...nothing special le...
just that i really on diet to fit myself into my formal wear..
im damn fat...
no further detail here...
isn't in a good mood now..
nothing much to say..
till then...

that me and yong..

me and mei yee

me and felicia...getting taller today...

me and hanyin...

rachel and i...damn dark weh..

melissa chan and melissa wong..

as usual..

me and foon...pink lady for the day..

me and wei jie..after econ lecture..

and i accidentally found this in my phone..

must be the work done by mei yee..

over the weekends....

2008-10-28T20:41:00.002+08:00

over the weekend i was in Ipoh..
nothing much happen..
and i got nothing much to say..
let's see what happen everyday..
friday night went out with sweetheart..
saturday noon went out with shir and sian..din take photo..sad..
sunday whole day with family...*i think..**
monday..went sing k with sian and yin...
others not free...3 of us..fun actually..
but we talk more than sing...
let's see see...nothing else...
tuesday..back to kl....=(

a pic of me half asleep..!!!

monday...sister and I...

during k...in the toilet..

yin and me...long time never take pic with her..

guys...i love to hang out with you all..

you all dont ever dont bother me k???

love love love..

muacks...

this is the new place in Ipoh..

damn nice...

presentation!!!

2008-10-24T22:04:00.004+08:00

hohoho...
we had moral presentation today..
and i was suffering from wearing that stupid heels..
damn high wey...
pain...muscle cramp..muahaha...
nothing much to say here...
just that i got a bit embarras today AGAIN...
lets look at the photos...

jonathan and jenn shyang..

jon is always that look..!!
me and felicia...
she's pretty i tell you...

yong yong...the one that always smiles differently to me...

nge..nge..nge..nge..

mel wong and jenn shyang...

couples mentioned by mr.ang..

hahaha...this is funny..

both being forced to take photo together..

that's foon, mel and mel..

hahax...XD

mel, mel and rachel..

beautiful hair she has..

tada...our group with ms.sofie..

some of them missing..coz rush back after class...
missing of weijie,steph,pakkah and joel..

i love this the most...

mel wong....you're gorgeous..~!

dont kill me ya...!!!

just a small revenge from me...

blek..=P

till then..see ya guys...

more presentation next week..

will get more photos...

weekend again

2008-10-23T23:33:00.003+08:00

let's see what happened after hanyin's house bbq..
the next day..
we went hanyin's house again..
this time is for assignment...
okay..i will not talk about that particular day anymore..
coz their blog occur something that i really dont want to see...
"Dont let me WEB you all..ok..??"

then monday...
i'm late to class again..
i was an hour late...
i missed my class..
wonder why i'm becoming so damn lazy nowdays..
must be influence by those that always sleepy in class..
that's the possible reason..

tuesday..
i have no idea about tuesday at all..

wednesday...
went to college early morning..
went into mel wong's car...
mentioned that not going out that noon..
but get influenced back..
end up we(hanyin, meiyee, mel wong, wei jie, fefe and I) hang out at 1utama until 7 something....
didnt buy anything..
but wei jie did bought a slack from G2000
seriously..i love that skirt...but...seriously serious...im broke..!

thursday...TODAY..
went class late again...this time is better..15 mins late only..
after all the classes..we went for lunch at 'take a break' restaurant..
okay..no comment on that restaurant..as they just opened for the 4th days..
then we went back to M floor...
the place we hang out the most when we're in college...
waited time pass for economics lecture..
this is the last lecture for this semester...
then we (melwong, wei jie and I) went to buy starbuck...
although its fattening...im still deeply in love with it..
melwong...dont ever goda me again..
after lecture i went melwong's house..
went to try out some clothes for my presentation..
OMG.........i can share all my outfits with her..
she's just my size..
tomorrow is having presentation..
.wooohooo.....looking forward....to die..
hopefully it'll get through smoothly...

OHHHH.....
now i remember about tuesday..
its felicia's birthday..
am i right...?
or...monday..???
OMG..i just cant remember..
anyway..
i'll just show you the photo of felicia's birthday..
all the girls in my group is here...except for the two muslim students...

everyone is perfectly nice in this pic...especially the one with grey jacket...

muahahaha......HAPPY BIRTHDAY FELICIA!!!!!!!!!

happy saturday

2008-10-19T11:32:00.002+08:00

morning guys...
i had a great day yesterday..
went community service in the morning...
after that we went for free pizza hut..
i laugh like mad during the meal..
and seriously...don't laugh too much while drinking softdrinks...
the gases were trap in between making me feel bad..
muahahahaha...i really laugh till tired..
there's somthing happen before that but i'm not gonna mention it...
after lunch we went giant to shop for things that needed for barbeque..
we went hanyin's house then..
prepare for the things...
muahahaha...

tadadada....
friends all came and we start playing our things...
i mean...eating and stuff...
we all craps like....laughing the whole night...
and there's someone drank too much..but the someone say she's not drunk..
i actually have a short video bout how funny that person is..
but i'm not going to upload here coz i still wish to live for the rest of my life..
hahaha...
hmm...much to write but that' ll be my memory and don't wanna tell you all much about that...
the only bad thing during the bbq thingy is the adsence of yongyong, steph,isaac and wei min..
hahaha...hope that there'll be the second party...steamboat maybe..
hahaha..love you guys...muacks...

this is the only pic i have for community service..

they were having pizza hut..and we were starving while looking at them..

this is the back of hanyin's house...see the jenn shyang...haha...funny..

this is the one that eat from the beginning till the end..

we took this pic at the roof top of hanyin's house...very comfortable place..

tow wen..the most quiet guy in my group..

asked him to take a pic with me is like pushing him down the house...^^

that's all....
i enjoyed the day and night of this saturday..
haha..thank you guys..
think i'll miss you all when i leave..

weekend in KL

2008-10-17T21:30:00.002+08:00

eik..this is the only friday i'm staying in KL(hopefully)...
who dont like to go home..right?
even just one day..i wish to go back just to see my family..

today..went class half an hour late..
every friday, i used to wake early to pack things to go back after class..
but today i was late to class coz i have no intention to wake at all..
hmm...is that my laziness..? or is it i really that dont like to stay in KL?
i think is just my laziness that causes this...
finally all my assignment is done...but the presentations are coming..aiks...nervous...
today the bcp class has cancelled..so i was loitering the the comp lab doing nothing..
then we went for moral class...we had quiz today...and its about religion...
muahahaha...i was playing gun shooting..haha...simply simply write something then pass up..
that's my best quiz ever..luckily only 2%...
after class..we went pyramid...thought wanna have a movie..but melisse said she dont want to watch..
so we end up window shopping..
but before that, we had our lunch in sakae sushi...
during the meal..we suddenly pop up with the idea of having a party tomorrow night...
bbq party in hanyin's house...
okay..the idea is accepted...hopefully will go smooth tomorrow..

after the outing with them..i met up with soon ken..
i really salute him...raining so heavily he still can go subang square for games...
we had dinner at secret recipe...2 days secret recipe...luckily foc..
if not...i'm broke...
then i send him to kelana station..
as he is going back to Ipoh..
poor me...being dumped by soon ken...

tomorrow have to wake early again...
no Ipoh dim sum...
no Ipoh hor fun....
no mummy..
no sister...
no daddy..
no sweetheart....
no sian...
no yin...
no shir..
no yen....
what a sad weekend i'll be having...
somemore tons of cloths to wash...HAND WASH!!!
somemore have to clean the house...
aiks....IM LAZY!!!

exam coming real soon...
and i haven start studying...
dont know why...
i'll know how to scared...but will never action to solve the problem...
sweetheart know that the best...
he should have scold me more so that i wont complain and go study...
but he...never scold me....aiks......
i must study...!!!
i want D,D,D and D....
i want RMIT...MU...!!!!
scared that my plan will be spoiled...
i want RMIT...i want AUSTRALIA...i want FEBRUARY....
if my plan never spoil.....119 days more i'll be leaving Malaysia...
muahaha...
im free by that time..
im free from facing those i dont want to face..
im free to have a new life and get a new target...
hahaha....crazy ar...where will get new target..
i'm still targetting for the past one..
hahaha.......

tomorrow will upload some photos i think...
if the party is on...
haha..see you all tomorrow...
take care....
muakcs.....

*i scared to hang out with you all
coz i'll be lonely when i got home*

back kl!

2008-10-12T23:39:00.002+08:00

hmm..
im back to KL again
is a place that i love last time but i hate now
i hate in the sense of staying here for 5 days in a week
if i have the choice, i'll rather go back to Ipoh everyday after class
that's something impossible i know

hmmm....
just few sentence to express my thinking for this few days

1. i really dislike KL

2. i don't wish to see you all anymore

3. i'm missing someone

4. what's your business to know whether i know him or not!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
can everyone stop creating rumours...??????????????????????????????
can everyone stop read my blog and tell the whole world...???????????????????
my blog is for me to express...not for you to create rumours..!!!!

2008-10-08T21:44:00.002+08:00

it doesn't mean im ok when i say im ok
it doesn't mean i dont miss you when i say i miss you
it doesn't mean i dont need your accompany when i say i dont disturb you
it doesn't mean i dont need you when i didn't find you
haiz..................................................
dont know what im saying...

early celebration..!!!

2008-10-04T21:53:00.003+08:00

hohoho...

long long time never update...

so the whole week was..so so...

not that too boring..

but not that happening..

today is the most happening day i think...

we had a surprise for yen today...

her birthday suppose to be on monday..

but all of us aren't free on monday..

we're all in different places on monday..

so we celebrate her birthday today..

so around noon..

me, yin, shir and soon ken met at yen's school carpark..

and sian responsible to tum yen to school..

muahahaha...

then we brought the cake and the present and pop into their classroom...

then....muahahahaha.....

we surprise yen as we expected..

muahahahaha...

yea...we bought her a bag and a watch..

i sincerely hope she likes it..

and.........thanks for everyone that shares the present..

hahaha.....

we took very few photo...

this is the only one that we took together..

but....where is soon ken..???

hahahahaha....

he wont mind i think..

hahahahaha....

that's all for today... good night....

holiday started

2008-09-29T08:52:00.002+08:00

i went back to Ipoh on Friday..
then i came back to Kl on Sunday..
just to bring my sister here for a holiday..
and..i brought her to 1u and midvalley yesterday..
later will be going to Sunway as she wanted to go for ice skating..
so now...she haven wake up..have to wait for her again.
hmm.................................

i started to hate my 6 sense..
i hate my observation..
everyday there's something happen..
i can automatically feel it..
especially his things..
okay...so now i know the reason..
he fell for someone..
someone that i know who she is..
why must i feel that..
why everytime i get to know who fell for who..
and why always the who is always the one i love..??
i hate the feeling of being down for him..
i feel tired of getting to know anything about him..
but everytime..no matter talking about what..
he just pop out from my mouth..
like..every issue also related to him..
aiks..can't he get lost....????

**what you did to me makes me hardly believe in any boys anymore**

duMmIes..

2008-09-24T21:25:00.002+08:00

now only i realise...
im in love with a dumdum for 1 year plus...
what the hell he's doing..
how can he do something to his best friend just for that dont know someone that pop out from which world...
what the hack is he thinking...
he never be mature a bit..
im regret to find excuse for him when he leave...
im regret to think so many of his advantages to comfort myself..
i should have hate you since the first day you made the decision..

i hope...you'll never get into my life anymore..
and please treat your friend better..
and not to treat those dont know what other planet ppl so damn nice...

Im Back

2008-09-23T19:51:00.002+08:00

hey..
really never update for ages..
i really not in the mood of updating since the mid term exam..
talking bout mid term exam..
damn shit weh...
my D, D, D and D gone edi..
flying up in the sky to somewhere far far away from me..
haiz....
my MU dream gone..
my RMIT maybe also gone..
where am i going then..?
UTAR???? eik....a big NO NO..!!!!
not that UTAR not good...
just that i need some place that is far from here..
hahaha..a place that i really can start a new life without my friends...

actually my results are expected la..
because i can't understand a single thing since lecture 1..
i mean for ALL the subjects..
starting now i should study edi..
but where is my studying mood..???
i lost the mood since SPM ends..
feeling old edi...
can't absorb as easy as last time..
now i understand why people say old edi will be hard for studying..
or....i'm taking that as an excuse to cover my laziness?
i think the second option is obviously what i'm thinking now..
hahahaha...!!!!!

hmm...let's see what've happen this while..
i can't really remember anything..
as you know my life is just as simple as a plain white paper..
with no content in it at all...
hmm..ok..let's talk bout last weekend..
my parents went Guilin since last wednesday..
and was back yesterday..
during the weekend..i'm back in Ipoh to be 2 person's babysitter-my sister and my grandma..
and now i know how pity a mother is when taking care of people..
how my mum tahan my sister and I when i'm in Ipoh?
hahaha...im wondering has my mum ever get frustrated when taking care of me..??
i think so she had....i'm just not so easy to satisfy when i'm with my mum coz my mum can give me almost everything..!!!
haha..i love you mum!

i had a great laugh when my father tell me things happen in Guilin..
haha...my mum is just have no sense of direction..
my dad said she even get lost in a small small hotel lobby..
hahaha..i really can't imagine how my mum go out alone..
no wonder she always says she can't live in KL alone..
hahahahaha...

lastly...
just wanna express something...
friends who ever see this don't ask me anything and don't do anything, ok?
it's a promise....
i feel myself more being leftout..
i feel like i've lost all my friends nowadays..
i know they are busy..
i know they have thier life..
but i don't think they've ever find me out even when they are free..
i'm the one always finding them...
am i..?
my mum always ask...
why must i maintain those friendship that they never notice me here...
i always thinking of that question..
why...? i think because i love them..
i don't know how i'll be without them..
i don't know how i get through all those days without them..
i only know they are important in my life..
but as people says...
how important a people is...they are all just a passing by in my life..
is that so..?
i don't want them to be my passing by guest..
i want them to be with me all the time..
i mean..not all the time..but at least don't leave me alone..
they have gangs of friend..
they still can meet each other every single day..
but i'm not that often to be in hometown..
and when i'm in hometown they will always be busy..
and now i'm leaving soon...
4 months+ i'm leaving...
i'm sure after i leave i'll have a greater gap between us..
maybe i'm the one causing this coz i don't really trying to adapt to the new style..
friends..no matter what..i really care bout how you treat me..i really do...
~finish of expressing...remember the promise you made just now..~

=)
let's talk bout another issue now..
i've been dreaming of the same person over and over again..
whenever i dream bout him...i always feel that my heart is burning..
really burning..like..i still can feel my tears on my face when i wake up..
can't he just leave my life completely..
why must all his actions..all his innocent looks..his everything still stay so clearly in my mind...?
somemore there's always someone to tell me something bout him...
always not the same person to tell me things bout him..
why are there so many people saw him and wanted to report to me..?
what you expect my respond to be when you tell me he's with a girl..?
what you expect my respond to be when you tell me he's smsing with girls?
can i like be one of those girls..?
i can't...i forever can't...
coz im in another catogory of people in his life..
being abundant..hahaha..like an abundant child..
dont be silly..
i still can live my life with full of cheers without YOU..(maybe...=P...)

2008-09-09T09:56:00.002+08:00

the best thing in life will leave
how to let go if im still in love with you
never dare to imagine the feeling of losing you
never learn how to be soft
it's too late to learn now as you can't accept it anymore
i have to say i'm leaving
or i should love you till you ask to leave
if i ask you to care bout my feelings
i'm afraid you'll tell out what i don't want to hear
the next happiness depends on me
next time can only treat you as friend
when next time i meet you really need good acting skills
you've leave the world of mine

deeply in love!

2008-09-05T23:59:00.002+08:00

i've not been updating my blog since 29th of August..
aiks..i just dont have the mood to update..
coz of laziness...think all of you know that..hahax..

let''s see what happen in the whole week.
i cant really remember actually..
i just remember i back KL on Tuesday,
then went out on tues night and wed night
never study..
due to HAR SOON KEN..
never let me study at home..
always yum cha..
haha..actually is myself dont wanna stay at home only..

my dad back on thursday,
went fetch him after class..
then went dinner at jogoya with grandma and cousin brother...
then...went LV..
oh no....
im deeply in love..
deeply in love with the bag..
deeply in love with the purse...
deeply deeply in love...
bought a bad for my mum's birthday..
it cost RM4xxx...kill me...!!!!
and my deeply in love bag cost RM3xxx..
deeply in love purse cost RM7xx...
i have to save money..
no startbuck..no McD..no TGI..no jogoya..no KFC..no Pizza..
i want LV!!! Gucci!!!! Prada!!!
deep deep deeply in love now..~~

today came back to Ipoh..
went meeting a friend who will be leaving to England tomorrow morning..
i'll be missing her much..!!!
she's not coming back this december..
and im not coming july 2009..
we can only meet again on dec 2009..
long way to go...
aiks...will be missing her much much much...!!!!

hmm..monday exam..but i haven start studying at all..
eh..something to be happy about today..
bcp online test was held this morning..
i never study anything since i went out whole day yesterday..
beyond my expectation..
i got 3.4/5...
i more than what i expect..
thought i'll fail the test..!!!
hopefully mid term i can also tembak tembak pass the bcp..
hahaha...

ok la..gonna sleep now..
damn tired...
good night everyone..

ILOVEYOU

2008-08-29T00:58:00.000+08:00

The worst way to miss someone

is to be sitting right beside them

but knowing you can't have them

and will never see them again

2008-08-29T00:35:00.001+08:00

i went to his profile just now
i'm not so happy bout what they send to him
i'm jealous
so what?
is there any law stating that i can't jealous?
why he can just flirt with anyone he knows?
why he just treat me as nothing?
am i really just invisible?

does he know that i miss him?
does he ever miss me?
not even a second think about me?
what the hell i'm thinking all this
damn..sucks lar this feeling
i hate to love someone
i hate to love someone that doesn't love me!

life..?

2008-08-28T23:56:00.001+08:00

i went out with my friend today,
and i chatted with him for hours.
i just reach home and is almost 12am now.

have a strong feeling to blog today, coz wasn't in a real good mood.
i chatted with him,
we shared feelings, shared problems, shared happiness.
this is the first time i saw his eyes with tears.
this is the first time i can't see the soh soh him.
this is the first time i can feel his sadness.
everyone have their own problem.
i'm sad to hear that but i'm glad that i'm the listener.
i can't do anything when you tell me your problem.
my advice might not be the suitable one, might not be the one that you want to hear, might not work in your situation.
but i'm willingly to be there for you when you need a friend.
when facing problem, we, as a kid, can't really do anything to change the fact,
the fact is the fact, we can accept then accept, can't accept then we can do nothing.
i know is suffering for you, but you have to stay tough hoping that this prob can be solved.
i'm sad that i can't help you anything.
when i saw your tears i really wanted to let you cry,
but you know, i scared people cry in front of me.
I'M SORRY!!

the only thing i can do is pray hard for your happiness,
pray hard that everything will be over soon.
your problem is just same as my problem.
i dont know what i can do as well.
maybe we just have to let it be.
am i taking it too easy?
but sometimes, if we take thing too serious,
the situation will become worse,
that's my opinion...
maybe i'm the one dont wish to accept the fact.

found out that teenager life isn't that easy.
there's a lot of thing we have to consider about.
being an adult is must more tougher.
everything you have to consider.
you have to think for yourself, you have to think for your partner, you have to think for your family.
there's so much to care about.
but there's just so little return to ownself.
recently talked to all my buddies, all with tears, think so there're more sadness than happiness in our life nowdays.
hope that this stage of life will over as soon as possible so that my buddies will have a better and more comfortable life..!!

buddies...
i love you all..
remember..
whenever there's a problem, there must be a solution.
don't think everything so serious, you'll be suffering in it.
and remember..
there's a friend here available anytime anywhere anyhow whenever you need someone.
i love you all buddies...muacks...!!!!!

I LOVE YOU!!!

2008-08-25T11:29:00.000+08:00

focus on 2 things today
one about friend
another about man

sian,
i love you
i really do
dont ever make me cry
i'll hate you for the rest of my life
i love you
you make me dont feel like leaving
you make me wanna stay by you forever
thank you for being there for me
thank you for always being with me
i'm glad that we never had arguments
you're the best of my besties
i'm serious
my weakness are all shown to you
actually...i know you know that
I LOVE YOU!!!
don't think so negatively
a family forever a family
she wont leave you that far
she'll always be just by your side

and about man
can i have some comment about men's thinking?
i found out that among my friends,
guys always have a strong ego
they'll always mind about their gf's background is richer or what
but damn..have you ever think what the girl think?
have you every think what she wants?
she wants money or wants you?
and if a better guy chase her,
is it a must that you let her go?
are you dum?
have you ask her who she likes?
please la...as if so 'generous'
damn la...
shouldn't be like that
please think before action, ok???

that's all i think
till then.

a not-so-good day

2008-08-23T23:25:00.000+08:00

today wasn't as comfortable as i wish
i wasn't that happy as i aspect
i dont know what happen
but i'm just kinda moody

i waited for him the whole day
and he left me kinda early
i'm down with no one accompany
and i'm sad that i can't meet my friends

when i was moody
i'll be right ok when i talk to him
but today,
it doesn't works at all
seems is serious than what i thought
hmm..what can i do now
i want my life back
i want my happiness back
i want my friends back
i want my puppies back
i want ck back
i dont want loneliness
i dont want fake friends
i dont want fake smile
i dont want fake concern
i just dont want the situation now

okok..to avoid my sadness
i better head to bed now
good night everyone

friday night

2008-08-22T22:16:00.000+08:00

i am back to Ipoh again!
yeah..my fav fav fav place..
a place that i call home..
a place i call happy..
a place i call comfortable..

this morning fetched wei jie from his condo..
i reach early le..so paiseh to ask him come down..
ahahax..
then went class as usual..
after class went sunway 'dragon-i' for lunch..
with wei jie and soon ken..
bought J.CO after that..
start our journey back to Ipoh..
2 something left sunway and i reach Ipoh by 4pm..
not even 2 hours..i think..

after sent WJ and SK back home,
i went RPGC to meet up with my parents..
played golf..! damn..i got blisters on my finger..
and my hand is shaking..aiks..how to hold a chopstick to eat my fav 'panmee'???
how to eat my fav 'gai si hor fun'???
how to eat 'ramen'???
haiyor....all my fav food gone lor...
sad weh...

then went home met my sad sister..
who lost both her puppies..
but seriously..
im not used to the quiet condition of my house..
i love dog barks..
i love sze sze..
and i like bebe..

then went dinner..
still love Ipoh food the most..
then i went night market..
thought wanna have a chat with my buddies..
but end up i gone home so early..
coz of some reason..
its only 10 something and i'm already home..
that's not a normal life of mine in Ipoh..
omg........

i miss CK..
seriously..i miss him..
can't i admit..?
i just miss CK..!!!!!!!!

WANTED!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-08-21T19:52:00.000+08:00

that's my puppy
i have 2 puppies
2 puppies gone in a night
my both puppies gone
i dont know who the **** took my puppies
****
damn!!!
can't you just buy one if you really likes?
why must you take mine?
can't you just let my sister to have accompany?
why must you take them away?
then who suppose to accompany my sis?
then who suppose to play with my sis?
who suppose to fill my sister's loneliness?
you?
you gonna do it?
i'm sure she's crying now
sure she is
and i can curse
the male puppy will bite you like how it bites me
it will bark at you like how it barks at me

i hate 'THIEVES'!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

A day In KL with Family

2008-08-21T06:35:00.000+08:00

i went out with my family yesterday.
after my class.
and i waited for them in college till 2 something around 3..
then we headed to BMW factory as my dad wanted to buy some accessories.
then we go to Transview Golf shop..as my dad wanted to buy something again..
then we went for our dinner.
it was so fun..and my dad said a lot of funny things..
during the journey to Victoria Station..
i told my dad that cameron call to kl is few seconds later to receive their voice..
then my dad says "is delay action..like..YOU..YOu..You..you..like that..."
then i stunned..i tot that's echo..???
hahaha...3 of us in car laught like mad.....but he still manage to receive the important call with our laughter disturbance..hahaha..

my sister..looking so.............'messy'??

my dad with his 'beautiful' smile..

my mum..always taking pic without looking at the camera..!!

that's me..with a tired look..

my glass of wine with my dad knocking on it..i mean..'cheers'..

the orange juice irritated you..??

tada...my salmon soup..!!

this is my dad's oxtail soup..yuck...i dont like..

my dad ordered a salad..and he asked...

how come my salad is salad only..?

ei...salad not salad then suppose is what le..??

haha...and there's some carrot slice on top of the salad..

my mum asked what's that..

my dad say...is the chef's moustache..

hahahaha...my sis and i laught like mad person..really..

the whole restaurant was looking at us...

and he did some magic somemore..

funny...couldn't get a pic of that..haiya..what a waste..

after the dinner..i drove them to sungai wang..as my dad wanted to buy something AGAIN..

when i asked my dad..where are we going..?

he told me..sungai bintang..then i was like..where is that..??

then he says...sungai way...hahahaha...where is that again..???

later, we went to bangsar..as you all know..my dad doesn't like to go home..

they went for drink..me and my sis also went for a drink..

but we drink starbuck..hohoho...

it was freezing cold last night in bangsar..

me, my sis, and chocolate cream chip

and this is my caramel hot chocolate

haha...till then...

am going to college now...

see ya..!!

Happy Birthday Tim.!

2008-08-19T23:09:00.000+08:00

today is tim's birthday.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TIM!!!
sorry la didn't buy you a cake today..!! forgotten..!! =P
anyway..enjoy going out with you today..
and sheena...and also hanyin..
im kinda miss sheena..
she've left taylors..
just for a week..and i miss her like..damn much..
doint everything without her is just so not right.
go mcd with no one rebut sauce with hanyin..
go toilet with no one asking me about her hair..
go class with no one talk nonsense with me..
go eat with no one tell me stories..
i miss sheena..i miss stories..i miss happiness..
sheena...dont forget about me..
and please keep in touch with me..
love.......

so..something funny happens...
that a call..from someone..
he asked me to call back..but end up he thought im another girl..
at last he called back and said sorry..haha..
eh..tak tau la..
a bit bit malu to talk to him also..
but anyhow he's a nice guy..

oh yes...!
my family is coming to kl tomorrow..!!
yes yes yes..!!!
i should be expecting more people to come kl..!!
why is everyone got trip here and there but im here rushing for assignments almost everyday..?
and im becoming more and more lazy..
everyday got no mood to study..
got no mood to do tutorials..
got no mood to clean my house..
my house is a mess now..
and i'll have to clean it before my parents come tomorrow..
oh my god..how long i have to spend on cleaning..
i hate cleaning..!!!

and i think that's all..
till then...sweetdreams..!!!

i missed something..
this is to sweetheart..
sweetheart,
our life is like this..
no one can stay alive forever..
everyone will pass away..
and there's no guarantee that good people will have longer lifes.
and bad people doesn't means will have shorter lifes.
all our lifes are shorts.
we just need to appreciate whatever we have here.
and dont bother about the length of life.
stay cheers k?
dont be so sad..
hurt to see you like that..
hope you'll be ok soon..!!
love..muacks..

history

2008-08-18T15:21:00.000+08:00

i've not been updating my blog for a very very long time..
due to some reasons..
1. lazy (all of us will, right?)
2. my life is just not as interesting as yours (maybe)
3. i got no mood to blog (caused by laziness, maybe?)

ok..lets see what had happen in the past few days.

on the thursday, 14th august 2008
my group mate and i went bak kut teh at Klang.
nothing much to describe there as it is really an unforgetable memory for me that i dont want to share with you all.
love my groupmates lots..!!

friday, 15th august 2008
went back to ipoh as usual.
went for drama with my friends and sweetheart.
and..nothing much happen except i feel myself left out.

saturday, 16th august 2008
went out with my mum as she doesn't allow me to hang out with my friends.
nothing much that day.

sunday, 17th august 2008
came back to kl.
watched badminton match with soon ken at mcdonalds.
sitted there for almost 5 hours.
lee chong wei! well done..we're proud of you!!

today, 18th august 2008.
went to college as usual.
class cancelled as usual.
hang around as usual.
mood not good as usual.
and heard something that made me feel im such a fool.
anyway..im used to be a fool.
nevermind.

think that's all at the moment.
will try to update this as often as i can.
till then.

**friends, happy holidays.
enjoy your holidays and please proceed to me when you're free.
as you know, i'm lonely.**
(special attention to sian and yen)

a new blog

2008-08-18T14:49:00.000+08:00

this is the 2nd time i'm changing my blog..

the 1st time with no reason and the 2nd time with some reasons.

the previous will be deleted.

and..people..please dont remember and dont believe what is the previous blog all about.

90% of it is fake.

nothing is true there..trust me, ok?

so..this is the new blog that i'll start to blog tomorrow..

guys..relink me..!!