holiday started

i went back to Ipoh on Friday..
then i came back to Kl on Sunday..
just to bring my sister here for a holiday..
and..i brought her to 1u and midvalley yesterday..
later will be going to Sunway as she wanted to go for ice skating..
so now...she haven wake up..have to wait for her again.
hmm.................................


i started to hate my 6 sense..
i hate my observation..
everyday there's something happen..
i can automatically feel it..
especially his things..
okay...so now i know the reason..
he fell for someone..
someone that i know who she is..
why must i feel that..
why everytime i get to know who fell for who..
and why always the who is always the one i love..??
i hate the feeling of being down for him..
i feel tired of getting to know anything about him..
but everytime..no matter talking about what..
he just pop out from my mouth..
like..every issue also related to him..
aiks..can't he get lost....????






**what you did to me makes me hardly believe in any boys anymore**

duMmIes..

now only i realise...
im in love with a dumdum for 1 year plus...
what the hell he's doing..
how can he do something to his best friend just for that dont know someone that pop out from which world...
what the hack is he thinking...
he never be mature a bit..
im regret to find excuse for him when he leave...
im regret to think so many of his advantages to comfort myself..
i should have hate you since the first day you made the decision..


i hope...you'll never get into my life anymore..
and please treat your friend better..
and not to treat those dont know what other planet ppl so damn nice...

Im Back

hey..
really never update for ages..
i really not in the mood of updating since the mid term exam..
talking bout mid term exam..
damn shit weh...
my D, D, D and D gone edi..
flying up in the sky to somewhere far far away from me..
haiz....
my MU dream gone..
my RMIT maybe also gone..
where am i going then..?
UTAR???? eik....a big NO NO..!!!!
not that UTAR not good...
just that i need some place that is far from here..
hahaha..a place that i really can start a new life without my friends...


actually my results are expected la..
because i can't understand a single thing since lecture 1..
i mean for ALL the subjects..
starting now i should study edi..
but where is my studying mood..???
i lost the mood since SPM ends..
feeling old edi...
can't absorb as easy as last time..
now i understand why people say old edi will be hard for studying..
or....i'm taking that as an excuse to cover my laziness?
i think the second option is obviously what i'm thinking now..
hahahaha...!!!!!

hmm...let's see what've happen this while..
i can't really remember anything..
as you know my life is just as simple as a plain white paper..
with no content in it at all...
hmm..ok..let's talk bout last weekend..
my parents went Guilin since last wednesday..
and was back yesterday..
during the weekend..i'm back in Ipoh to be 2 person's babysitter-my sister and my grandma..
and now i know how pity a mother is when taking care of people..
how my mum tahan my sister and I when i'm in Ipoh?
hahaha...im wondering has my mum ever get frustrated when taking care of me..??
i think so she had....i'm just not so easy to satisfy when i'm with my mum coz my mum can give me almost everything..!!!
haha..i love you mum!

i had a great laugh when my father tell me things happen in Guilin..
haha...my mum is just have no sense of direction..
my dad said she even get lost in a small small hotel lobby..
hahaha..i really can't imagine how my mum go out alone..
no wonder she always says she can't live in KL alone..
hahahahaha...

lastly...
just wanna express something...
friends who ever see this don't ask me anything and don't do anything, ok?
it's a promise....
i feel myself more being leftout..
i feel like i've lost all my friends nowadays..
i know they are busy..
i know they have thier life..
but i don't think they've ever find me out even when they are free..
i'm the one always finding them...
am i..?
my mum always ask...
why must i maintain those friendship that they never notice me here...
i always thinking of that question..
why...? i think because i love them..
i don't know how i'll be without them..
i don't know how i get through all those days without them..
i only know they are important in my life..
but as people says...
how important a people is...they are all just a passing by in my life..
is that so..?
i don't want them to be my passing by guest..
i want them to be with me all the time..
i mean..not all the time..but at least don't leave me alone..
they have gangs of friend..
they still can meet each other every single day..
but i'm not that often to be in hometown..
and when i'm in hometown they will always be busy..
and now i'm leaving soon...
4 months+ i'm leaving...
i'm sure after i leave i'll have a greater gap between us..
maybe i'm the one causing this coz i don't really trying to adapt to the new style..
friends..no matter what..i really care bout how you treat me..i really do...
~finish of expressing...remember the promise you made just now..~

=)
let's talk bout another issue now..
i've been dreaming of the same person over and over again..
whenever i dream bout him...i always feel that my heart is burning..
really burning..like..i still can feel my tears on my face when i wake up..
can't he just leave my life completely..
why must all his actions..all his innocent looks..his everything still stay so clearly in my mind...?
somemore there's always someone to tell me something bout him...
always not the same person to tell me things bout him..
why are there so many people saw him and wanted to report to me..?
what you expect my respond to be when you tell me he's with a girl..?
what you expect my respond to be when you tell me he's smsing with girls?
can i like be one of those girls..?
i can't...i forever can't...
coz im in another catogory of people in his life..
being abundant..hahaha..like an abundant child..
dont be silly..
i still can live my life with full of cheers without YOU..(maybe...=P...)

the best thing in life will leave
how to let go if im still in love with you
never dare to imagine the feeling of losing you
never learn how to be soft
it's too late to learn now as you can't accept it anymore
i have to say i'm leaving
or i should love you till you ask to leave
if i ask you to care bout my feelings
i'm afraid you'll tell out what i don't want to hear
the next happiness depends on me
next time can only treat you as friend
when next time i meet you really need good acting skills
you've leave the world of mine

deeply in love!

i've not been updating my blog since 29th of August..
aiks..i just dont have the mood to update..
coz of laziness...think all of you know that..hahax..

let''s see what happen in the whole week.
i cant really remember actually..
i just remember i back KL on Tuesday,
then went out on tues night and wed night
never study..
due to HAR SOON KEN..
never let me study at home..
always yum cha..
haha..actually is myself dont wanna stay at home only..

my dad back on thursday,
went fetch him after class..
then went dinner at jogoya with grandma and cousin brother...
then...went LV..
oh no....
im deeply in love..
deeply in love with the bag..
deeply in love with the purse...
deeply deeply in love...
bought a bad for my mum's birthday..
it cost RM4xxx...kill me...!!!!
and my deeply in love bag cost RM3xxx..
deeply in love purse cost RM7xx...
i have to save money..
no startbuck..no McD..no TGI..no jogoya..no KFC..no Pizza..
i want LV!!! Gucci!!!! Prada!!!
deep deep deeply in love now..~~

today came back to Ipoh..
went meeting a friend who will be leaving to England tomorrow morning..
i'll be missing her much..!!!
she's not coming back this december..
and im not coming july 2009..
we can only meet again on dec 2009..
long way to go...
aiks...will be missing her much much much...!!!!

hmm..monday exam..but i haven start studying at all..
eh..something to be happy about today..
bcp online test was held this morning..
i never study anything since i went out whole day yesterday..
beyond my expectation..
i got 3.4/5...
i more than what i expect..
thought i'll fail the test..!!!
hopefully mid term i can also tembak tembak pass the bcp..
hahaha...

ok la..gonna sleep now..
damn tired...
good night everyone..

ILOVEYOU