The worst way to miss someone

is to be sitting right beside them

but knowing you can't have them

and will never see them again

i went to his profile just now
i'm not so happy bout what they send to him
i'm jealous
so what?
is there any law stating that i can't jealous?
why he can just flirt with anyone he knows?
why he just treat me as nothing?
am i really just invisible?

does he know that i miss him?
does he ever miss me?
not even a second think about me?
what the hell i'm thinking all this
damn..sucks lar this feeling
i hate to love someone
i hate to love someone that doesn't love me!

life..?

i went out with my friend today,
and i chatted with him for hours.
i just reach home and is almost 12am now.

have a strong feeling to blog today, coz wasn't in a real good mood.
i chatted with him,
we shared feelings, shared problems, shared happiness.
this is the first time i saw his eyes with tears.
this is the first time i can't see the soh soh him.
this is the first time i can feel his sadness.
everyone have their own problem.
i'm sad to hear that but i'm glad that i'm the listener.
i can't do anything when you tell me your problem.
my advice might not be the suitable one, might not be the one that you want to hear, might not work in your situation.
but i'm willingly to be there for you when you need a friend.
when facing problem, we, as a kid, can't really do anything to change the fact,
the fact is the fact, we can accept then accept, can't accept then we can do nothing.
i know is suffering for you, but you have to stay tough hoping that this prob can be solved.
i'm sad that i can't help you anything.
when i saw your tears i really wanted to let you cry,
but you know, i scared people cry in front of me.
I'M SORRY!!

the only thing i can do is pray hard for your happiness,
pray hard that everything will be over soon.
your problem is just same as my problem.
i dont know what i can do as well.
maybe we just have to let it be.
am i taking it too easy?
but sometimes, if we take thing too serious,
the situation will become worse,
that's my opinion...
maybe i'm the one dont wish to accept the fact.

found out that teenager life isn't that easy.
there's a lot of thing we have to consider about.
being an adult is must more tougher.
everything you have to consider.
you have to think for yourself, you have to think for your partner, you have to think for your family.
there's so much to care about.
but there's just so little return to ownself.
recently talked to all my buddies, all with tears, think so there're more sadness than happiness in our life nowdays.
hope that this stage of life will over as soon as possible so that my buddies will have a better and more comfortable life..!!

buddies...
i love you all..
remember..
whenever there's a problem, there must be a solution.
don't think everything so serious, you'll be suffering in it.
and remember..
there's a friend here available anytime anywhere anyhow whenever you need someone.
i love you all buddies...muacks...!!!!!

I LOVE YOU!!!

focus on 2 things today
one about friend
another about man

sian,
i love you
i really do
dont ever make me cry
i'll hate you for the rest of my life
i love you
you make me dont feel like leaving
you make me wanna stay by you forever
thank you for being there for me
thank you for always being with me
i'm glad that we never had arguments
you're the best of my besties
i'm serious
my weakness are all shown to you
actually...i know you know that
I LOVE YOU!!!
don't think so negatively
a family forever a family
she wont leave you that far
she'll always be just by your side


and about man
can i have some comment about men's thinking?
i found out that among my friends,
guys always have a strong ego
they'll always mind about their gf's background is richer or what
but damn..have you ever think what the girl think?
have you every think what she wants?
she wants money or wants you?
and if a better guy chase her,
is it a must that you let her go?
are you dum?
have you ask her who she likes?
please la...as if so 'generous'
damn la...
shouldn't be like that
please think before action, ok???

that's all i think
till then.

a not-so-good day

today wasn't as comfortable as i wish
i wasn't that happy as i aspect
i dont know what happen
but i'm just kinda moody

i waited for him the whole day
and he left me kinda early
i'm down with no one accompany
and i'm sad that i can't meet my friends

when i was moody
i'll be right ok when i talk to him
but today,
it doesn't works at all
seems is serious than what i thought
hmm..what can i do now
i want my life back
i want my happiness back
i want my friends back
i want my puppies back
i want ck back
i dont want loneliness
i dont want fake friends
i dont want fake smile
i dont want fake concern
i just dont want the situation now

okok..to avoid my sadness
i better head to bed now
good night everyone

friday night

i am back to Ipoh again!
yeah..my fav fav fav place..
a place that i call home..
a place i call happy..
a place i call comfortable..

this morning fetched wei jie from his condo..
i reach early le..so paiseh to ask him come down..
ahahax..
then went class as usual..
after class went sunway 'dragon-i' for lunch..
with wei jie and soon ken..
bought J.CO after that..
start our journey back to Ipoh..
2 something left sunway and i reach Ipoh by 4pm..
not even 2 hours..i think..

after sent WJ and SK back home,
i went RPGC to meet up with my parents..
played golf..! damn..i got blisters on my finger..
and my hand is shaking..aiks..how to hold a chopstick to eat my fav 'panmee'???
how to eat my fav 'gai si hor fun'???
how to eat 'ramen'???
haiyor....all my fav food gone lor...
sad weh...

then went home met my sad sister..
who lost both her puppies..
but seriously..
im not used to the quiet condition of my house..
i love dog barks..
i love sze sze..
and i like bebe..

then went dinner..
still love Ipoh food the most..
then i went night market..
thought wanna have a chat with my buddies..
but end up i gone home so early..
coz of some reason..
its only 10 something and i'm already home..
that's not a normal life of mine in Ipoh..
omg........


i miss CK..
seriously..i miss him..
can't i admit..?
i just miss CK..!!!!!!!!

WANTED!!!!!!!!!!!

that's my puppy
i have 2 puppies
2 puppies gone in a night
my both puppies gone
i dont know who the **** took my puppies
****
damn!!!
can't you just buy one if you really likes?
why must you take mine?
can't you just let my sister to have accompany?
why must you take them away?
then who suppose to accompany my sis?
then who suppose to play with my sis?
who suppose to fill my sister's loneliness?
you?
you gonna do it?
i'm sure she's crying now
sure she is
and i can curse
the male puppy will bite you like how it bites me
it will bark at you like how it barks at me

i hate 'THIEVES'!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

A day In KL with Family

i went out with my family yesterday.
after my class.
and i waited for them in college till 2 something around 3..
then we headed to BMW factory as my dad wanted to buy some accessories.
then we go to Transview Golf shop..as my dad wanted to buy something again..
then we went for our dinner.
it was so fun..and my dad said a lot of funny things..
during the journey to Victoria Station..
i told my dad that cameron call to kl is few seconds later to receive their voice..
then my dad says "is delay action..like..YOU..YOu..You..you..like that..."
then i stunned..i tot that's echo..???
hahaha...3 of us in car laught like mad.....but he still manage to receive the important call with our laughter disturbance..hahaha..

my sister..looking so.............'messy'??

my dad with his 'beautiful' smile..

my mum..always taking pic without looking at the camera..!!

that's me..with a tired look..

my glass of wine with my dad knocking on it..i mean..'cheers'..

the orange juice irritated you..??

tada...my salmon soup..!!

this is my dad's oxtail soup..yuck...i dont like..

my dad ordered a salad..and he asked...

how come my salad is salad only..?

ei...salad not salad then suppose is what le..??

haha...and there's some carrot slice on top of the salad..

my mum asked what's that..

my dad say...is the chef's moustache..

hahahaha...my sis and i laught like mad person..really..

the whole restaurant was looking at us...

and he did some magic somemore..

funny...couldn't get a pic of that..haiya..what a waste..

after the dinner..i drove them to sungai wang..as my dad wanted to buy something AGAIN..

when i asked my dad..where are we going..?

he told me..sungai bintang..then i was like..where is that..??

then he says...sungai way...hahahaha...where is that again..???

later, we went to bangsar..as you all know..my dad doesn't like to go home..

they went for drink..me and my sis also went for a drink..

but we drink starbuck..hohoho...

it was freezing cold last night in bangsar..

me, my sis, and chocolate cream chip

and this is my caramel hot chocolate

haha...till then...

am going to college now...

see ya..!!

Happy Birthday Tim.!

today is tim's birthday.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TIM!!!
sorry la didn't buy you a cake today..!! forgotten..!! =P
anyway..enjoy going out with you today..
and sheena...and also hanyin..
im kinda miss sheena..
she've left taylors..
just for a week..and i miss her like..damn much..
doint everything without her is just so not right.
go mcd with no one rebut sauce with hanyin..
go toilet with no one asking me about her hair..
go class with no one talk nonsense with me..
go eat with no one tell me stories..
i miss sheena..i miss stories..i miss happiness..
sheena...dont forget about me..
and please keep in touch with me..
love.......

so..something funny happens...
that a call..from someone..
he asked me to call back..but end up he thought im another girl..
at last he called back and said sorry..haha..
eh..tak tau la..
a bit bit malu to talk to him also..
but anyhow he's a nice guy..

oh yes...!
my family is coming to kl tomorrow..!!
yes yes yes..!!!
i should be expecting more people to come kl..!!
why is everyone got trip here and there but im here rushing for assignments almost everyday..?
and im becoming more and more lazy..
everyday got no mood to study..
got no mood to do tutorials..
got no mood to clean my house..
my house is a mess now..
and i'll have to clean it before my parents come tomorrow..
oh my god..how long i have to spend on cleaning..
i hate cleaning..!!!

and i think that's all..
till then...sweetdreams..!!!

i missed something..
this is to sweetheart..
sweetheart,
our life is like this..
no one can stay alive forever..
everyone will pass away..
and there's no guarantee that good people will have longer lifes.
and bad people doesn't means will have shorter lifes.
all our lifes are shorts.
we just need to appreciate whatever we have here.
and dont bother about the length of life.
stay cheers k?
dont be so sad..
hurt to see you like that..
hope you'll be ok soon..!!
love..muacks..

history

i've not been updating my blog for a very very long time..
due to some reasons..
1. lazy (all of us will, right?)
2. my life is just not as interesting as yours (maybe)
3. i got no mood to blog (caused by laziness, maybe?)

ok..lets see what had happen in the past few days.

on the thursday, 14th august 2008
my group mate and i went bak kut teh at Klang.
nothing much to describe there as it is really an unforgetable memory for me that i dont want to share with you all.
love my groupmates lots..!!

friday, 15th august 2008
went back to ipoh as usual.
went for drama with my friends and sweetheart.
and..nothing much happen except i feel myself left out.

saturday, 16th august 2008
went out with my mum as she doesn't allow me to hang out with my friends.
nothing much that day.

sunday, 17th august 2008
came back to kl.
watched badminton match with soon ken at mcdonalds.
sitted there for almost 5 hours.
lee chong wei! well done..we're proud of you!!

today, 18th august 2008.
went to college as usual.
class cancelled as usual.
hang around as usual.
mood not good as usual.
and heard something that made me feel im such a fool.
anyway..im used to be a fool.
nevermind.

think that's all at the moment.
will try to update this as often as i can.
till then.


**friends, happy holidays.
enjoy your holidays and please proceed to me when you're free.
as you know, i'm lonely.**
(special attention to sian and yen)

a new blog

this is the 2nd time i'm changing my blog..

the 1st time with no reason and the 2nd time with some reasons.

the previous will be deleted.

and..people..please dont remember and dont believe what is the previous blog all about.

90% of it is fake.

nothing is true there..trust me, ok?



so..this is the new blog that i'll start to blog tomorrow..

guys..relink me..!!