Another Life

my days are getting more and more dull
i did nothing everyday except wandering around the city
for not wasting my tram ticket, we went to the South Melbourne Beach..
it was 7something and the sky was so nice..
it started to become windy and the wind was cold..
we walked along the beach for a while then we headed home..

i couldn't sleep well these days

slept late woke early

things keep running through my mind

memories of my life with my family

memories of my life with my buddy in secondary school

memories of my life with .3 friends in KL

memories of him cheering up my life

and these make me felt that I'm empty here

I'm not someone independant

I'm someone who need to rely on someone

I'm someone that will be completely quiet infront of strangers
but I'm someone need accompany slightly more than any others

in the dark room, seeing my sister sleeping soundly

looking at the sky with stars

imagining what are you guys doing there

imagining how's my life if I'm there with you all now

imagining how's my life if I never met you all

feeling more and more lonely and empty

feeling our distance getting far apart

feeling my heart still sticking to you all

feeling how important you are to me

a friend asked me

why must we be seperated?

I said

this is life

she asked again

why must life be like this?

what can i answer for this?

these questions I've asked myself for millions of times when I was in KL

I can't get any answer

this is what we must face in our entire life

maybe this is the challenges that we need to get through

testing how strong our bond is

some of us get through it easily

but some of us don't

this is how we become mature

this is how we become tough in life

we can live our life without each other

coz human have the ability of adapting to new environment

we must improve ourselves than staying back in memories

we must walk all the way down toughly

this morning I randomly read someone's blog

someone that I don't really know

and I found one interesting theory mentioned by him

(sorry for copying ur post here =P )

he said his teacher showed them an experiment

using 2 papers and glue

2 papers = boy and girl

glue = relationship bond

so the teacher stick both papers together with the glue

and tear it out after

part of the paper with glue stain looks imperfect, torn badly

it means when the relationship ends, it somehow hurt the person you lvoe and left a wound as 'souvenirs'

a scar permanently marked in their heart

although the wound will get well but the scar will stay forever

we thought we're recover because we cant's see the scar from outside

but we'll still feel the pain if you touch it long after

this theory is so similar with the one my friend told me

something that he left on me didn't he take away from me when he left

why those people so smart get to think of this experiment expressing a person's feeling so truely

this post seems so dragging

I better stop here

till then

*28 days to go~