tagged by yen

1. What's your ambition?
Alright, what's my ambition...anything...as long as i can earn!

2. How often do you think of committing suicide?
commit suicide? never found in my dictionary..=P

3. Do you think you have enough confidence?
im full of confidence all the time.......in some particular thing..

4. How many babies you want?
babies..? can i dont have 1?

5. Do you believe in seeing rainbow after the rain?
i often see that after rain

6. What is your goal for this year?
get into RMIT

7. Do you believe in eternity love?
not reli

8. What do you say about your life now?
in a complete mess

9. What feeling do you love the most?
my heart beats when i saw someone

10. What are the requirements you wish from the other half?
1st -- tall
others -- doesnt matter as long as he loves me

11. Is there anything you want to tell the people you hate?
nothing more to tell

12. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
i think so

13. What does flying means to you?
freedom?

14. What do you crave for the most currently?
nothing coz currently on diet!

15. Where would your ultimate vacation spot be?
japan maybe

16. Describe the person who tagged you in 7 words.
7 words?
you're everything to me in my life!

17. What have you done to yourself that make yourself happy?
find thesomeone

18. What will you become in another 10 years to come?
out of this mess probably

19. What is your lucky number?
dont have one!

20. What is your favourite food?
anything from IPOH

People to tag:
can i dont tag anyone?

today i stayed in KL..
so i woke up and i cooked my breakfast...
damn it..!!!
i burned 2 fingers...OMG...damn pain..!!
now my fingers are totally cooked...
aiks...i cant even hold my chopstick properly...
damn sad weh...!!!!

this part..specially to SIAN, YEN, YIN and SHIR...
i miss you all la girls..
when can i meet you all...
when can i hang out with you all..
i dont want gap with you all..
i wanna keep everything remain the same even though i'm not around starting next year...
i hope i can do it..
i just hope that...
and....today i heard some of the old songs.....
and i found this song...
F4's di yi shi jian...
the lyrics make me keep thinking of you all...
hmm...dedicate this song to you all..
i love you...MUACKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

please listen to this song here..!

lyrics here...
THIS SONG GOES OUT TO ALL THOSE SPECIAL PEOPLE IN MY HEART
BUT THAT ONE PERSON THAT MATTERS THE MOST
YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE
DOESN'T MATTER FOR NOW,
DOESN'T MATTER LATER
ALL I GOTTA DO IS MAKE THAT CALL
TURN AROUND, THERE YOU ARE
AND SO TO YOU FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART
I WANNA SAY ONE THING
THANK YOU
累了不要見外　把我挖起來　吐個痛快
看不慣朋友有難　誰還冷冷的圍觀
我的手心為你握起來
煩了不要見外　把我找出來　陪你負擔
續杯咖啡的溫暖　一直暖到你想開
你心情的坑洞讓我來填滿
昨天會被今天明天來取代
動心的感情不會淘汰　關心常在
就算你我在熱鬧喧嘩中走散
友情會第一時間趕來
讓跳亂的心平躺下來
重新的呼吸簡單　
深深的　滿滿的
朋友只要你被孤單壓的叫不出來
我第一時間送出關懷
熱熱的眼神陪你看開
找回那片大自然　
圍著你抱緊你相信你 我確定

its a different me today..

no sleeves with hairband..

muahaha..just thought of trying something new...

sick day...

when you get used to rely on someone

you'll get lonely most of the time

leave the lights on when im gone..

i need to find my way home..

my new semester

its my new semester..
and it will be my last semester too...~hopefully~
will be leaving real soon d..
aiks...hope that i can leave with the expression that i had promised..
very very damn unlucky...im chosen to be the ass class rep..
is not a good thing...

eh....2 thing...
one...i started to hate someone...
second...i started to fall for someone..
hahaha...
eh...
the first is like so.......i dont know what word to describe...
only one word.....UNTAHANABLE....~~
what i do is none of your business..
when no one ask for your comment...
please do not sound out anything......

the second one...confusing...
i dont know why he seems can read my mind..
whenever i get mad and tell myself not to find him anymore...
he will definitely text me..
and i'm like failed to leave...
aiks...unbearable again...~


just a not so meaningful blog...
aiks...damn sien..
i need stats text book..!!!!!!!

hoho....

photos for today..

went out with my mum and sister today..

brought my sister to hospital for x-ray for her braces thingy..

was pujuk-ing my mum to let me do too..

but i failed....

aiks....

i want braces...!!!!!!!

aiks..something happened last 2 days...

and im fed up...mad...aiks....

luckily there's someone i can rely on..

at least i can laugh when im with the someone...

muahaha..

tomorrow my elder sister is coming back..

sad case..another person who will keep on kacau me 24/7...

aiks........

but i do miss her a lot..

haha...

that's all...

A LoVe StOrY BeGinS

We were both young, when I first saw you

I close my eyes and the flashback starts

I’m standing there, on a balcony of summer air
I see the lights, see the party, the ball gowns

I see you make your way through the crowd

You say hello, little did I know…
That you were Romeo, you were throwing pebbles

And my daddy said “stay away from Juliet”

And I was crying on the staircase

Begging you please don’t go…And I said…

Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone

I’ll be waiting, all there’s left to do is run

You’ll be the prince and I’ll be the princess,

It’s a love story, baby, just say yes

So I sneak out to the garden to see you

We keep quiet, because we’re dead if they knew

So close your eyes

Escape this town for a little while

Cause you were Romeo, I was a scarlet letter,

And my daddy said “stay away from Juliet”

But you were everything to me

I was begging you, please don’t go…And I said...

Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone

I’ll be waiting, all there’s left to do is run

You’ll be the prince and I’ll be the princess

It’s a love story, baby, just say yes

Romeo save me, they’re trying to tell me how to feel

This love is difficult, but it’s real

Don’t be afraid, we’ll make it out of this mess

It’s a love story, baby, just say yes…

I got tired of waiting

Wondering if you were ever coming around

My faith in you was fading

When I met you on the outskirts of town...And I said...

Romeo save me, I’ve been feeling so alone

I keep waiting, for you but you never come

Is this in my head, I don’t know what to think

He kneels to the ground and pulled out a ring and said....
Marry me Juliet, you’ll never have to be alone

I love you, and that’s all I really know

I talked to your dad-you’ll pick the white dress

It’s a love story, baby just say…YES…

Happy Birthday,

Shirley

hoho...
my lovely sweetheart shir shir is becoming 18 today..
and she's now finally legal for everything...
hahaha...let's have some fun now on...
dont ever try to dump me from your life..
i'll be haunted for you for my whole life..
haha..
stay sweet stay pretty stay smart...
love you always..
muacks........

johor..im coming..

im now in my car..
on my journey to Johor..
first time visiting..
and the purpose of going Johor is to accompany my dad for site visits..
i hate to follow as it spoils all my plans for my holiday..
i planned to go out with my friends today to buy birthday present for my dearest Shirley..
aiks..now i dont even know whether i can go back on time to celebrate her birthday..
he's just so self centred..
alwayss poiled our plans..
aiks....

yea im havung my 2 weeks break now..
and...i have nothing special to tell out here..
think so my friends had fun in Port Dickson for the pass few days..
hmm..sad that i couldn't go with them..
sorry guys...

hmm..i've been back at Ipoh for so many days...
i hadn't meet any of my friend except for sweetheart..
i went movie with him...Madagascar 2..
i've watched that twice before i watch with him..
he doesn't know until we've bought the ticket..
haha...haiya..is a nice show ma...
i dont mind watching it so many times...
so...during the movie..i was so tired and so i slept on his shoulder..
muahaha..he wont mind i think..
after movie..we went dinner...i mean...supper...as it's late..
we had McDonalds..
then...we went yum cha at the Oldtown nearby..
we met a pretty tall girl..
omg..she's damn pretty...
and i was shock that sweetheart knew her..
eiks....that stupid fellow go simply admit me as his gf..
blek...who wants to be ur gf..
hmppp...=P
then i went home around 12.30am...and my mum was like..staring at me..
hahaha...

that night..i had a dream...
dream of ck and him...
and was like...ck is back to me again..
and so coincidently...
the next morning..
i went lunch at ck's shop..
woohoo...there's an unexplainable happiness in me..
i was like smilling all the way to Kl..
hahaha...and i made a chance to meet him again when i got back...
muahahahahaha.....

i am damn boring in the car...
i finished one novel and going to start another one after this..
such a long time i never blog..
hahaha....i love blolgging....
as i can express something that i couldn't express to anyone else..
haha..
till then...

unfavourable day

grey is my colour today..
aiks..
dont know what's happening..
today is like...so not my day..
i had bad dreams...
i mean real bad till my pillows are all wet...
and till when i wake up...i close my eyes..
i saw the thing..omg..
the thing is just everywhere..
i dont know when it will disappear..
i hope it disappear..but on the other hand...i dont hope so..

aiks....
then i wake and i study..
omg...the thing appear in my notes..
and is like everywhere of my notes..
im going to be crazy soon..
real soon....
then i go drink water..
i wash my cup..
and.....plang plang plang....piak....
my cup....omg...my fav cup...gone...sobz...
sorry cup...i dont wish that to happen...

then went out lu...with mel and wj...
omg...2700...i love my 2700 LV...
i want that...i really want that...omg..
ok la..nothing much to say..
just that i really hate that dream...
but im glad to see that thing there..
coz i know...he's still in me..






hope i'll spend my life here beside you in every way
coz i have nothing left to be on this earth today...

Quote by Steph...
support this..!!!

"The way he talk is like a superlittlekancil that are going out of petrol,

it keep cucuk my ear like how BMW cucuk Kerani on the highway."

accounting and english presentation

hmm..
i had presentation today..
accounting and english...
and i can say that...is not good..
as im not well-prepared..
but im sure..if im prepared..i'll be blank once i step out to the front..
that's what it happen when i present my econ in a few weeks back...
hmm...nothing special le...
just that i really on diet to fit myself into my formal wear..
im damn fat...
no further detail here...
isn't in a good mood now..
nothing much to say..
till then...

that me and yong..

me and mei yee

me and felicia...getting taller today...

me and hanyin...

rachel and i...damn dark weh..

melissa chan and melissa wong..

as usual..

me and foon...pink lady for the day..

me and wei jie..after econ lecture..

and i accidentally found this in my phone..

must be the work done by mei yee..

over the weekends....

over the weekend i was in Ipoh..
nothing much happen..
and i got nothing much to say..
let's see what happen everyday..
friday night went out with sweetheart..
saturday noon went out with shir and sian..din take photo..sad..
sunday whole day with family...*i think..**
monday..went sing k with sian and yin...
others not free...3 of us..fun actually..
but we talk more than sing...
let's see see...nothing else...
tuesday..back to kl....=(

a pic of me half asleep..!!!

monday...sister and I...

during k...in the toilet..


yin and me...long time never take pic with her..

guys...i love to hang out with you all..

you all dont ever dont bother me k???

love love love..

muacks...

this is the new place in Ipoh..

damn nice...

presentation!!!

hohoho...
we had moral presentation today..
and i was suffering from wearing that stupid heels..
damn high wey...
pain...muscle cramp..muahaha...
nothing much to say here...
just that i got a bit embarras today AGAIN...
lets look at the photos...

jonathan and jenn shyang..

jon is always that look..!!
me and felicia...
she's pretty i tell you...

yong yong...the one that always smiles differently to me...

nge..nge..nge..nge..

mel wong and jenn shyang...

couples mentioned by mr.ang..

hahaha...this is funny..

both being forced to take photo together..

that's foon, mel and mel..

hahax...XD

mel, mel and rachel..

beautiful hair she has..

tada...our group with ms.sofie..

some of them missing..coz rush back after class...
missing of weijie,steph,pakkah and joel..

i love this the most...

mel wong....you're gorgeous..~!

dont kill me ya...!!!

just a small revenge from me...

blek..=P

till then..see ya guys...

more presentation next week..

will get more photos...

weekend again

let's see what happened after hanyin's house bbq..
the next day..
we went hanyin's house again..
this time is for assignment...
okay..i will not talk about that particular day anymore..
coz their blog occur something that i really dont want to see...
"Dont let me WEB you all..ok..??"



then monday...
i'm late to class again..
i was an hour late...
i missed my class..
wonder why i'm becoming so damn lazy nowdays..
must be influence by those that always sleepy in class..
that's the possible reason..



tuesday..
i have no idea about tuesday at all..




wednesday...
went to college early morning..
went into mel wong's car...
mentioned that not going out that noon..
but get influenced back..
end up we(hanyin, meiyee, mel wong, wei jie, fefe and I) hang out at 1utama until 7 something....
didnt buy anything..
but wei jie did bought a slack from G2000
seriously..i love that skirt...but...seriously serious...im broke..!



thursday...TODAY..
went class late again...this time is better..15 mins late only..
after all the classes..we went for lunch at 'take a break' restaurant..
okay..no comment on that restaurant..as they just opened for the 4th days..
then we went back to M floor...
the place we hang out the most when we're in college...
waited time pass for economics lecture..
this is the last lecture for this semester...
then we (melwong, wei jie and I) went to buy starbuck...
although its fattening...im still deeply in love with it..
melwong...dont ever goda me again..
after lecture i went melwong's house..
went to try out some clothes for my presentation..
OMG.........i can share all my outfits with her..
she's just my size..
tomorrow is having presentation..
.wooohooo.....looking forward....to die..
hopefully it'll get through smoothly...







OHHHH.....
now i remember about tuesday..
its felicia's birthday..
am i right...?
or...monday..???
OMG..i just cant remember..
anyway..
i'll just show you the photo of felicia's birthday..
all the girls in my group is here...except for the two muslim students...

everyone is perfectly nice in this pic...especially the one with grey jacket...

muahahaha......HAPPY BIRTHDAY FELICIA!!!!!!!!!

happy saturday

morning guys...
i had a great day yesterday..
went community service in the morning...
after that we went for free pizza hut..
i laugh like mad during the meal..
and seriously...don't laugh too much while drinking softdrinks...
the gases were trap in between making me feel bad..
muahahahaha...i really laugh till tired..
there's somthing happen before that but i'm not gonna mention it...
after lunch we went giant to shop for things that needed for barbeque..
we went hanyin's house then..
prepare for the things...
muahahaha...

tadadada....
friends all came and we start playing our things...
i mean...eating and stuff...
we all craps like....laughing the whole night...
and there's someone drank too much..but the someone say she's not drunk..
i actually have a short video bout how funny that person is..
but i'm not going to upload here coz i still wish to live for the rest of my life..
hahaha...
hmm...much to write but that' ll be my memory and don't wanna tell you all much about that...
the only bad thing during the bbq thingy is the adsence of yongyong, steph,isaac and wei min..
hahaha...hope that there'll be the second party...steamboat maybe..
hahaha..love you guys...muacks...

this is the only pic i have for community service..

they were having pizza hut..and we were starving while looking at them..

this is the back of hanyin's house...see the jenn shyang...haha...funny..

this is the one that eat from the beginning till the end..

we took this pic at the roof top of hanyin's house...very comfortable place..

tow wen..the most quiet guy in my group..

asked him to take a pic with me is like pushing him down the house...^^

that's all....
i enjoyed the day and night of this saturday..
haha..thank you guys..
think i'll miss you all when i leave..

weekend in KL

eik..this is the only friday i'm staying in KL(hopefully)...
who dont like to go home..right?
even just one day..i wish to go back just to see my family..

today..went class half an hour late..
every friday, i used to wake early to pack things to go back after class..
but today i was late to class coz i have no intention to wake at all..
hmm...is that my laziness..? or is it i really that dont like to stay in KL?
i think is just my laziness that causes this...
finally all my assignment is done...but the presentations are coming..aiks...nervous...
today the bcp class has cancelled..so i was loitering the the comp lab doing nothing..
then we went for moral class...we had quiz today...and its about religion...
muahahaha...i was playing gun shooting..haha...simply simply write something then pass up..
that's my best quiz ever..luckily only 2%...
after class..we went pyramid...thought wanna have a movie..but melisse said she dont want to watch..
so we end up window shopping..
but before that, we had our lunch in sakae sushi...
during the meal..we suddenly pop up with the idea of having a party tomorrow night...
bbq party in hanyin's house...
okay..the idea is accepted...hopefully will go smooth tomorrow..

after the outing with them..i met up with soon ken..
i really salute him...raining so heavily he still can go subang square for games...
we had dinner at secret recipe...2 days secret recipe...luckily foc..
if not...i'm broke...
then i send him to kelana station..
as he is going back to Ipoh..
poor me...being dumped by soon ken...

tomorrow have to wake early again...
no Ipoh dim sum...
no Ipoh hor fun....
no mummy..
no sister...
no daddy..
no sweetheart....
no sian...
no yin...
no shir..
no yen....
what a sad weekend i'll be having...
somemore tons of cloths to wash...HAND WASH!!!
somemore have to clean the house...
aiks....IM LAZY!!!

exam coming real soon...
and i haven start studying...
dont know why...
i'll know how to scared...but will never action to solve the problem...
sweetheart know that the best...
he should have scold me more so that i wont complain and go study...
but he...never scold me....aiks......
i must study...!!!
i want D,D,D and D....
i want RMIT...MU...!!!!
scared that my plan will be spoiled...
i want RMIT...i want AUSTRALIA...i want FEBRUARY....
if my plan never spoil.....119 days more i'll be leaving Malaysia...
muahaha...
im free by that time..
im free from facing those i dont want to face..
im free to have a new life and get a new target...
hahaha....crazy ar...where will get new target..
i'm still targetting for the past one..
hahaha.......

tomorrow will upload some photos i think...
if the party is on...
haha..see you all tomorrow...
take care....
muakcs.....




*i scared to hang out with you all
coz i'll be lonely when i got home*

back kl!

hmm..
im back to KL again
is a place that i love last time but i hate now
i hate in the sense of staying here for 5 days in a week
if i have the choice, i'll rather go back to Ipoh everyday after class
that's something impossible i know

hmmm....
just few sentence to express my thinking for this few days

1. i really dislike KL

2. i don't wish to see you all anymore

3. i'm missing someone

4. what's your business to know whether i know him or not!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
can everyone stop creating rumours...??????????????????????????????
can everyone stop read my blog and tell the whole world...???????????????????
my blog is for me to express...not for you to create rumours..!!!!

it doesn't mean im ok when i say im ok
it doesn't mean i dont miss you when i say i miss you
it doesn't mean i dont need your accompany when i say i dont disturb you
it doesn't mean i dont need you when i didn't find you
haiz..................................................
dont know what im saying...

early celebration..!!!

hohoho...

long long time never update...

so the whole week was..so so...

not that too boring..

but not that happening..

today is the most happening day i think...

we had a surprise for yen today...

her birthday suppose to be on monday..

but all of us aren't free on monday..

we're all in different places on monday..

so we celebrate her birthday today..

so around noon..

me, yin, shir and soon ken met at yen's school carpark..

and sian responsible to tum yen to school..

muahahaha...

then we brought the cake and the present and pop into their classroom...

then....muahahahaha.....

we surprise yen as we expected..

muahahahaha...

yea...we bought her a bag and a watch..

i sincerely hope she likes it..

and.........thanks for everyone that shares the present..

hahaha.....

we took very few photo...

this is the only one that we took together..

but....where is soon ken..???

hahahahaha....

he wont mind i think..

hahahahaha....

that's all for today... good night....

holiday started

i went back to Ipoh on Friday..
then i came back to Kl on Sunday..
just to bring my sister here for a holiday..
and..i brought her to 1u and midvalley yesterday..
later will be going to Sunway as she wanted to go for ice skating..
so now...she haven wake up..have to wait for her again.
hmm.................................


i started to hate my 6 sense..
i hate my observation..
everyday there's something happen..
i can automatically feel it..
especially his things..
okay...so now i know the reason..
he fell for someone..
someone that i know who she is..
why must i feel that..
why everytime i get to know who fell for who..
and why always the who is always the one i love..??
i hate the feeling of being down for him..
i feel tired of getting to know anything about him..
but everytime..no matter talking about what..
he just pop out from my mouth..
like..every issue also related to him..
aiks..can't he get lost....????






**what you did to me makes me hardly believe in any boys anymore**

duMmIes..

now only i realise...
im in love with a dumdum for 1 year plus...
what the hell he's doing..
how can he do something to his best friend just for that dont know someone that pop out from which world...
what the hack is he thinking...
he never be mature a bit..
im regret to find excuse for him when he leave...
im regret to think so many of his advantages to comfort myself..
i should have hate you since the first day you made the decision..


i hope...you'll never get into my life anymore..
and please treat your friend better..
and not to treat those dont know what other planet ppl so damn nice...

Im Back

hey..
really never update for ages..
i really not in the mood of updating since the mid term exam..
talking bout mid term exam..
damn shit weh...
my D, D, D and D gone edi..
flying up in the sky to somewhere far far away from me..
haiz....
my MU dream gone..
my RMIT maybe also gone..
where am i going then..?
UTAR???? eik....a big NO NO..!!!!
not that UTAR not good...
just that i need some place that is far from here..
hahaha..a place that i really can start a new life without my friends...


actually my results are expected la..
because i can't understand a single thing since lecture 1..
i mean for ALL the subjects..
starting now i should study edi..
but where is my studying mood..???
i lost the mood since SPM ends..
feeling old edi...
can't absorb as easy as last time..
now i understand why people say old edi will be hard for studying..
or....i'm taking that as an excuse to cover my laziness?
i think the second option is obviously what i'm thinking now..
hahahaha...!!!!!

hmm...let's see what've happen this while..
i can't really remember anything..
as you know my life is just as simple as a plain white paper..
with no content in it at all...
hmm..ok..let's talk bout last weekend..
my parents went Guilin since last wednesday..
and was back yesterday..
during the weekend..i'm back in Ipoh to be 2 person's babysitter-my sister and my grandma..
and now i know how pity a mother is when taking care of people..
how my mum tahan my sister and I when i'm in Ipoh?
hahaha...im wondering has my mum ever get frustrated when taking care of me..??
i think so she had....i'm just not so easy to satisfy when i'm with my mum coz my mum can give me almost everything..!!!
haha..i love you mum!

i had a great laugh when my father tell me things happen in Guilin..
haha...my mum is just have no sense of direction..
my dad said she even get lost in a small small hotel lobby..
hahaha..i really can't imagine how my mum go out alone..
no wonder she always says she can't live in KL alone..
hahahahaha...

lastly...
just wanna express something...
friends who ever see this don't ask me anything and don't do anything, ok?
it's a promise....
i feel myself more being leftout..
i feel like i've lost all my friends nowadays..
i know they are busy..
i know they have thier life..
but i don't think they've ever find me out even when they are free..
i'm the one always finding them...
am i..?
my mum always ask...
why must i maintain those friendship that they never notice me here...
i always thinking of that question..
why...? i think because i love them..
i don't know how i'll be without them..
i don't know how i get through all those days without them..
i only know they are important in my life..
but as people says...
how important a people is...they are all just a passing by in my life..
is that so..?
i don't want them to be my passing by guest..
i want them to be with me all the time..
i mean..not all the time..but at least don't leave me alone..
they have gangs of friend..
they still can meet each other every single day..
but i'm not that often to be in hometown..
and when i'm in hometown they will always be busy..
and now i'm leaving soon...
4 months+ i'm leaving...
i'm sure after i leave i'll have a greater gap between us..
maybe i'm the one causing this coz i don't really trying to adapt to the new style..
friends..no matter what..i really care bout how you treat me..i really do...
~finish of expressing...remember the promise you made just now..~

=)
let's talk bout another issue now..
i've been dreaming of the same person over and over again..
whenever i dream bout him...i always feel that my heart is burning..
really burning..like..i still can feel my tears on my face when i wake up..
can't he just leave my life completely..
why must all his actions..all his innocent looks..his everything still stay so clearly in my mind...?
somemore there's always someone to tell me something bout him...
always not the same person to tell me things bout him..
why are there so many people saw him and wanted to report to me..?
what you expect my respond to be when you tell me he's with a girl..?
what you expect my respond to be when you tell me he's smsing with girls?
can i like be one of those girls..?
i can't...i forever can't...
coz im in another catogory of people in his life..
being abundant..hahaha..like an abundant child..
dont be silly..
i still can live my life with full of cheers without YOU..(maybe...=P...)

the best thing in life will leave
how to let go if im still in love with you
never dare to imagine the feeling of losing you
never learn how to be soft
it's too late to learn now as you can't accept it anymore
i have to say i'm leaving
or i should love you till you ask to leave
if i ask you to care bout my feelings
i'm afraid you'll tell out what i don't want to hear
the next happiness depends on me
next time can only treat you as friend
when next time i meet you really need good acting skills
you've leave the world of mine

deeply in love!

i've not been updating my blog since 29th of August..
aiks..i just dont have the mood to update..
coz of laziness...think all of you know that..hahax..

let''s see what happen in the whole week.
i cant really remember actually..
i just remember i back KL on Tuesday,
then went out on tues night and wed night
never study..
due to HAR SOON KEN..
never let me study at home..
always yum cha..
haha..actually is myself dont wanna stay at home only..

my dad back on thursday,
went fetch him after class..
then went dinner at jogoya with grandma and cousin brother...
then...went LV..
oh no....
im deeply in love..
deeply in love with the bag..
deeply in love with the purse...
deeply deeply in love...
bought a bad for my mum's birthday..
it cost RM4xxx...kill me...!!!!
and my deeply in love bag cost RM3xxx..
deeply in love purse cost RM7xx...
i have to save money..
no startbuck..no McD..no TGI..no jogoya..no KFC..no Pizza..
i want LV!!! Gucci!!!! Prada!!!
deep deep deeply in love now..~~

today came back to Ipoh..
went meeting a friend who will be leaving to England tomorrow morning..
i'll be missing her much..!!!
she's not coming back this december..
and im not coming july 2009..
we can only meet again on dec 2009..
long way to go...
aiks...will be missing her much much much...!!!!

hmm..monday exam..but i haven start studying at all..
eh..something to be happy about today..
bcp online test was held this morning..
i never study anything since i went out whole day yesterday..
beyond my expectation..
i got 3.4/5...
i more than what i expect..
thought i'll fail the test..!!!
hopefully mid term i can also tembak tembak pass the bcp..
hahaha...

ok la..gonna sleep now..
damn tired...
good night everyone..

ILOVEYOU

The worst way to miss someone

is to be sitting right beside them

but knowing you can't have them

and will never see them again

i went to his profile just now
i'm not so happy bout what they send to him
i'm jealous
so what?
is there any law stating that i can't jealous?
why he can just flirt with anyone he knows?
why he just treat me as nothing?
am i really just invisible?

does he know that i miss him?
does he ever miss me?
not even a second think about me?
what the hell i'm thinking all this
damn..sucks lar this feeling
i hate to love someone
i hate to love someone that doesn't love me!

life..?

i went out with my friend today,
and i chatted with him for hours.
i just reach home and is almost 12am now.

have a strong feeling to blog today, coz wasn't in a real good mood.
i chatted with him,
we shared feelings, shared problems, shared happiness.
this is the first time i saw his eyes with tears.
this is the first time i can't see the soh soh him.
this is the first time i can feel his sadness.
everyone have their own problem.
i'm sad to hear that but i'm glad that i'm the listener.
i can't do anything when you tell me your problem.
my advice might not be the suitable one, might not be the one that you want to hear, might not work in your situation.
but i'm willingly to be there for you when you need a friend.
when facing problem, we, as a kid, can't really do anything to change the fact,
the fact is the fact, we can accept then accept, can't accept then we can do nothing.
i know is suffering for you, but you have to stay tough hoping that this prob can be solved.
i'm sad that i can't help you anything.
when i saw your tears i really wanted to let you cry,
but you know, i scared people cry in front of me.
I'M SORRY!!

the only thing i can do is pray hard for your happiness,
pray hard that everything will be over soon.
your problem is just same as my problem.
i dont know what i can do as well.
maybe we just have to let it be.
am i taking it too easy?
but sometimes, if we take thing too serious,
the situation will become worse,
that's my opinion...
maybe i'm the one dont wish to accept the fact.

found out that teenager life isn't that easy.
there's a lot of thing we have to consider about.
being an adult is must more tougher.
everything you have to consider.
you have to think for yourself, you have to think for your partner, you have to think for your family.
there's so much to care about.
but there's just so little return to ownself.
recently talked to all my buddies, all with tears, think so there're more sadness than happiness in our life nowdays.
hope that this stage of life will over as soon as possible so that my buddies will have a better and more comfortable life..!!

buddies...
i love you all..
remember..
whenever there's a problem, there must be a solution.
don't think everything so serious, you'll be suffering in it.
and remember..
there's a friend here available anytime anywhere anyhow whenever you need someone.
i love you all buddies...muacks...!!!!!

I LOVE YOU!!!

focus on 2 things today
one about friend
another about man

sian,
i love you
i really do
dont ever make me cry
i'll hate you for the rest of my life
i love you
you make me dont feel like leaving
you make me wanna stay by you forever
thank you for being there for me
thank you for always being with me
i'm glad that we never had arguments
you're the best of my besties
i'm serious
my weakness are all shown to you
actually...i know you know that
I LOVE YOU!!!
don't think so negatively
a family forever a family
she wont leave you that far
she'll always be just by your side


and about man
can i have some comment about men's thinking?
i found out that among my friends,
guys always have a strong ego
they'll always mind about their gf's background is richer or what
but damn..have you ever think what the girl think?
have you every think what she wants?
she wants money or wants you?
and if a better guy chase her,
is it a must that you let her go?
are you dum?
have you ask her who she likes?
please la...as if so 'generous'
damn la...
shouldn't be like that
please think before action, ok???

that's all i think
till then.